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Our bodies are the least interesting thing about us, and I feel sad that so many people, including myself, have these self-limiting beliefs that imply that it is not true. It's feverish. I lost weight once a few years ago. I ended up gaining it all back, plus some, and to be honest, I have been emotionally torturing myself since then, and let's be even more honest, I really have been emotionally torturing myself for my whole life. I want peace, and I want my body not to control my actions and decisions, and I want it not to restrict me further in my life. I fantasize a lot about what my life will be like when I finally get it together, and I don't know if that will ever happen. It's like I'm yearning for a lover I will never have and everyday I'm like damn if I could only get kissed by that lover my p*ssy would be dripping , and I would probably eat more fruits and vegetables , and shake my ass at the sun and maybe wear a thong to the beach and lay in the sand , and let the sun kiss my face and my body WITHOUT being afraid of getting skin cancer , and getting exterminated.

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it’s not separate from me; it’s the vessel I inhabit to navigate the world. I try to avoid things that i know will make me feel physically bad and do things that I know will make me feel physically good. I eat food that feels nourishing and pleasurable for me; I sleep when I need to sleep and move when I need to move.
It’s something I try my best not to think about too much or to assign labels or judgments. It’s changed over the years in many ways and also stayed the same in others.
Most of the external points of comparison we use to examine ourselves are rooted in media standards that are fictitious and manufactured to make us feel bad about ourselves and buy products to fill an endless void of lack.
the societal expectation to LOVE your body is an unrealistic aspiration for many. It can sometimes be better to strive to view it in a neutral way, to be grateful for the things you’re able to do and even just for being here. You only get one life (as far as we know with absolute certainty) so why spend it needlessly criticizing yourself.
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