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Rec'd on ☁️ Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

i’m quite scared of thinking about this, so i’m really only mustering up a reply in hopes that years from now i’ll look back on this and either think “aw” or “lmao she has no idea what’s in store” in five years i’ll be 28 🧘‍♀️ i’m hoping i have had a chance to do some fulfilling travel. particularly other countries, maybe solo, for extended periods of time, really just immersing myself in humanity and the experience of being and community. i also hope i will have lived in a new city by then. columbus can’t tie me down 4everrr i’m sure i will have fallen in love. maybe even again and again. hopefully first, with myself. career wise, i would have liked to go back to grad school by then. but if not, there’s never a timeline on education. and education doesn’t have to come from formal institutions! so whether i have continued in higher education like i hope to or not, i hope i will have continued to learn something new every day. in more concrete terms, i hope to continue working in nonprofit like i am right now for a couple more years before going back to school for my doctorate so i can become a professor. we will see if that’s the case! i just hope wherever i end up, i show myself grace and i am surrounded by love. i’m already filled with love, so i know it will come back to me in abundance someday! ❤️‍🔥

@paiton

Feb 28, 2025

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