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Coming to terms with something I call ā€œproductivity addiction,ā€ I don’t think there are any parts of my life that aren’t oriented toward some form of emotional/physical/creative betterment. Even my hobbies and interests are becoming increasingly rooted in ideas of ā€œsuccessā€ and ā€œgrowth.ā€ It’s catching up to me. I need Real Leisure and I need it now. I want to have fun again. Time to undo some knots.
Apr 20, 2025

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Great insight
Apr 21, 2025

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The dial that controls my creative output has not been cranked to the max lately and I’ve been getting upset at myself for it. Its felt like I’ve been wasting my free time by doing things that I like instead of things that are productive, and in turn enjoying those things less because I’m thinking about how I should be bettering myself or my world in some way. I know there will be a time when the juices flow again because they have once before, and while I am in this dry spell I’m trying not to crucify myself too rigorously for not doing much writing and instead trying to make it to the end of the day without telling myself that I need to kill myself too many times to be deemed socially or even asocially acceptable. Maybe a less prideful individual would just call it being depressed, but I must convolute around taking the easy way out and chalking it up to some misfiring neurons to instead convince myself that I am a cog in some unknowable cosmic engine and I simply must wait for some 7th dimensional machine elf to power me back on before Feeling Like Myself Again
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There’s a term I learned that I have found very useful- insight junkies. It is when a person in therapy seeks more and more insight, but never actually heals or transforms any of it. This can be kind of an issue is straight talk therapy- okay we’ve identified the issue, now what? When you clean out a wound, you need to stop messing with it in order for it to heal. It needs to have some air to breathe. That’s never going to happen if you keep picking at it. Try things on. Get playful. Make mistakes. TAKE ACTION! Change is not supposed to be easy or comfortable, but that doesn’t mean it can’t also be fun and exciting.
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I have to be doing something with my hands or have an activity planned for myself outside of work, I am rarely just chilling by myself with my own thoughts (I call friends and family so much which is a strength but sometimes it’s just to talk and exhaust myself) Trying to be better at savoring moments and not rushing through things but it’s physically uncomfortable for me to just do nothing sometimes
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