Rec | I FEEL LIKE I AM DRIVEN BY A MOTOR MOST DAYS

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I feel like i am driven by a motor most days

I have to be doing something with my hands or have an activity planned for myself outside of work, I am rarely just chilling by myself with my own thoughts (I call friends and family so much which is a strength but sometimes it’s just to talk and exhaust myself)
Trying to be better at savoring moments and not rushing through things but it’s physically uncomfortable for me to just do nothing sometimes

@aidanaguirre

Jul 18, 2024

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@capyboppy

i've gotten much better at slowing down the past few years but i’m still very good at distracting myself. sitting with our emotions can be so uncomfortable!

Jul 18, 2024

@royallmonarch

this must be a latino thing because same

Jul 18, 2024

@aidanaguirre

royallmonarch I would agree, my guess is that the psychology of it is to be able to avoid or ignore grief or conflict and use working or activity as a coping mechanism rather than thinking reflectively or talking things out

Jul 18, 2024

@royallmonarch

aidanaguirre 100%, if you havent read the book Our Migrant Souls you should check it. it’s all about Latin culture and generational trauma haha

Jul 18, 2024

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