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It’s weird because you’re told that you’re smart, in gifted and talented classes, praised but only when you do well in your studies. Your desire to feel praise and love from your parents leads you down to study the sciences even though you really wanted to study geography at university.
covid hits the year you graduate and it’s hard to find a job! a good 2/3 years pass of fruitless attempts to find a job in the scientific field. so you go and study for your Masters in Oncoimmunology hoping it’ll be enough academic experience to land you an entry job but it’s not and no one cares that you studied hard and no one care that you love your area of research. it’s a tough market atp i just wanna be a home maker so I can play video games all day and hire a cleaner.
Ive been feeling sososo dejected recently from applying to jobs, have a first class masters but no experience so no one wants to hire you? like damn bitch come teach me??? ME???
Mar 20, 2025
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I was set on a fine arts path for a long time, then wanted to combine that with my interest in psych and become a music therapist. Then I got stage fright during my clarinet scholarship audition and threw up on the stage and decided I could never show my face in the music department again. I stuck with psych and added anthropology.
I loved my social sciences classes but I decided to take a development class online during my first summer of college, and I loooooved it! I remembered how much the brain fascinated me as an organ and how neuroscience may be a better fit for me than psychology. So I emailed my advisor and we ended up changing my whole life around to build a curriculum that mimicked what I’d be taking if my school had a neuro major. Then, they developed a neuro major and I was one of the first to graduate from it! Took me an extra semester but oh well lol.
I got multiple job offers, and took the one farthest from South Dakota. I ended up in a random suburb in Maryland at a clinic/research facility that worked with children with abnormal sex chromosomes (XXY, XYY, X, etc) since that can significantly impact cognitive development. But this place was so shady and everyone who worked there was miserable, so I had to leave. I found my next job and worked at the old job less than 90 days!
But this new job would have me questioning myself and my intelligence on a daily basis. There were days when I loved it and felt like I was doing something really cool and special and interesting and important! But most of the time I was sad and scared and anxious and ended up really hating myself and the work. And this is unfortunately how a lot of grad students feel, but I wasn’t a student! People mistook me for one, or even for a post doc sometimes, but I just worked there!! I was going through all of that for 3 years of my life and I don’t even have a degree to show for it smh
So I thought about what else I wanted to do with my life and decided to go back to school for occupational therapy! I want to help people directly, and I know first hand that animal research really does help people (I’m on an antibody that was developed inside of rodents lol) but I want to do that more tangibly. And I still want to have it pertain to neuroscience in some way, and OT would allow me to help people recover from strokes or TBIs or maintain a level of autonomy during age-related cognitive decline! So I’m currently taking classes so that I can be ready to apply to the OT doctorate program in my state :)
But going back to the job…I lost the job last month… And now I haven’t been working in weeks and I’m about to get my last severance paycheck and the job search isn’t totally going how I’d hoped…but it’ll be okay, I’ll find a way through this chapter and I’ll make it into that program and it’ll work out eventually, right?
And if a patient likes to make music I might end up being a music therapist of sorts after all!
May 29, 2025
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Even if you study the statistically highest earning major, that doesn’t guarantee you a job. Unless you’re going for something ultra specific, most jobs just want to see that you have the guts to finish a degree, it doesn’t matter so much what it is. If you have a passion, follow it! It’ll make your time in school that much more enjoyable.
I started college majoring in materials sciences and engineering at a big ten school bc math was my best subject but I was miserableeeee. I thought I had to do the hardest degree possible to be successful in life and I come from a long line of engineers. Now, I feel like I’m following some sort of calling studying apparel at a tech school. Even though it’s not as promising statistically. We’re all gonna die someday anyway.
Also!!! I majorly recommend taking a gap year. That year of real life outside of an academic setting can really sheepdog your priorities.
Feb 28, 2025
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College is about the experiences and connections you seek out and the knowledge you gain. You can find ways to specialize and differentiate yourself from others, but you have to be an active participant in life instead of waiting for things to happen to you. There’s a wealth of opportunities available to you, so I would recommend trying everything that you can so you can start to get a feel for what you like to do and what matters to you. Then you can start finding your purpose.
As with the concept of gifted kid burnout, the reality is that everyone has their own individual strengths and aptitudes, but nobody is inherently more special than anyone else. The important thing is getting your foot in the door and showing up!
You may also want to seek out counseling services with your university if you feel you may be experiencing symptoms of depression or even just to have someone to talk to and help you along. Big life transitions like this can be incredibly destabilizing, so it’s understandable if you’re feeling lost and disillusioned!
Sorry for the Republican dad rant. go get ‘em champ 👨 👍
Sep 25, 2024
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Spent Sunday doodling, I’m off to see my sister today. She got hit by a car and I think being bed bound is starting to get to her. I’m just happy she’s alive because I would have followed her in death to be honest.
I just hope she’s mentally doing well.
Feb 17, 2025
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my screentime has increased seven fold (i am not doing well) and so has my anxiety?? coincidence perhaps
May 20, 2025
My favourite cat passed away, Nala. Its been a bit of a weird weekend if I’m being real.
I’ve had her for 8 years, she was a rescue from a shelter and was the shyest baby ever. i used to feed her shrimp because she loved them but she would always grab the shrimp from my hand, run under the bed to eat and come back out for more. The smallest of noises scared her, making her retreat to her safe place.
In the years I got to love her I became her safe space, she was such a Velcro cat. She liked to be held on the hip like a baby, have her cheek and belly rubbed at the same time, but most importantly she loved loved to just be ON YOU or near you. Her ears would rarely move when you called her, unless you called her all high pitch the way she was used to being called by me. (She would always come to me over other people too). idk I’m rambling but I loved her and I can’t believe she’s just gone. I regret every time I was too busy to pet or cuddle her, I just thought she’d be here forever with me.
She got me through my panic disorder, because she was just another anxious little thing, afraid of the world. god I miss her so much and I hope she’s missing me too.
Anyway here’s 5 photos my perfect beautiful little princess
Apr 1, 2025