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I went to this girl that Iā€™ve been seeing for a few month ā€˜s show tonight. Shes the drummer and her band was soo good. Iā€™ve listened to them before, but this was the first time I had seen her perform with the band. Iā€™ve watched her play other times at her orchestra concerts and such but damnnnnnnnnn. I was mesmerized by her the whole time. After the show she came up to me before the next band played. Turned out that her parents were there so I had an impromptu meeting with them haha. We hung out the rest of the night until she had to wrap up. She walked me to my car and I drove her back. Itā€™s confusing because we have an emotional connection and sometimes hang out without doing anything but that was the foundation of our relationship. I love sleeping with her, but I can tell we both like eachother to some degree. Iā€™m just worried I like her more than she likes me, and weā€™re in different phases of our life. I love when weā€™re sweet together and we sometimes go on dates just to see eachother for a little while. We appear like a couple in public anytime weā€™re together, so it really messes with my head. I want more than what we have right now, and I canā€™t tell where weā€™re heading. Love being a lesbian, but I know my heart is getting wrapped up in this. I just hope this all goes the way it is meant to. šŸ« 
Mar 19, 2025

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