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at the end of 2022 i realised most, if not all, of the ways I pursued pleasure were really just me running away from displeasure. can’t blame myself too much; this was right after years of lockdown in the philippines. i'll save the many ways escapism found me for another time haha i just wanna fully recommend doing the tedious inner work of discerning which things actually bring us real joy vs the ones we just use as emotional crutches - then doing more of the former. life is so much fuller, more saturated when we allow ourselves to experience pleasure for what it is, not just temporary relief. lets fucking gooooo
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spent the last five or so years in a maze of ennui and self-pity, but i have in the last 18 months slowly been clawing my way towards something resembling the life i want to be living.
i can see the end of the tunnel now, but strangely that amplifies my impatience. when things seemed more hopeless it was perversely sort of freeing - i didn’t know where i should be going, so i wasn’t in a rush. now that i have the full map in my hands i have nothing left to do but drive towards the end. that’s exactly what i wanted, in a sense, but now i have the burden of actually executing on the promises i made to myself - turns out that’s harder than making the promises in the first place! who knew
Mar 3, 2025
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one thing i've learned is that there is absolutely nowhere you should be or anything you should be striving for. u r where you r for a reason, don’t fight the current. knowing this has eased a lot of my anxieties about my future and what's to come. as long as i am avid about cultivating joy and doing things that give me a sense of purpose (reading books, journaling, quality time w/ friends + family) i know that everything else will fall into place. trust this and i promise it will prove to b fruitful! any action done in the present is a key factor in what your future will manifest as - one question i always ask myself is: is your current routine bringing you joy???
Jan 22, 2025
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just move towards one thing that makes you happy, one go at a time. if it becomes a pattern, think about what it is about the thing that makes you happy. move towards it, one diy, one event, one forum at a time. also know that you can reinvent yourself hundreds of times in this lifetime, so goals are arbitrary. what matters is that you spend most of your days with at least a bit or a lot of joy. oh also remembering that your career ≠ what fulfils you. sometimes we work just to have $$ to do what we really want to do (cook/draw/knit/make music etc). in the end, your life will be made up of many small moments, so just try to enjoy yourself. at least that’s how i do it :)
Apr 22, 2024
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i dont know how i managed to field interstellar for more than a decade but today i decided i was finally going to see it. i didnt feel like holding my phone up for 3 hours and it was too hot in the living room (heat index today 41C wtf) so i went to the next best screen: the tv in my parents room. my dad was already in bed, cooling off after lunch. i climbed in beside him and put the film on, ignoring his half hearted protest that he wanted to nap lol i wanted to watch interstellar, he just happened to be there
and then an old murph said she knew cooper would come back "because my dad promised me" and i realised i was holding my dads hand, time folding in on itself
and i thought oh, maybe this is why i never saw this film before. maybe it was orbiting me all these years, waiting for this version of me, this version of my dad, this version of life where i could sit beside him, feeling the weight of a hot, humid manila summer, and the quiet gratitude of a moment finally arriving
Apr 8, 2025
making the most out of the beautiful sun we've been getting !
rly need to heal my productivity trauma bc the last time i printed on rocks was two whole years ago and the only reason i did this today was bc i had leftover solution from the cyanotype class i taught this morning 🥲 vowing to make more personal prints and to experiment more this season!!!!!
Mar 16, 2025
how beautiful is life that we get to hang out w friends and share a meal w them and i couldnt reach the pianggang so A scooped up some chicken and sauce to put on my plate that was hovering over the rest of our food hahaha
and wow palm grill!!! authentic southern mindanaoan cuisine!!!!! loml
Mar 26, 2025