Rec | BEING HUMAN

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the other day, someone who is a few years younger than me told me that they look up to me. they casually mentioned it in conversation. and i started to cry. for the past few months i have been consumed by grief in a way that has forced me to lose much of myself, and i’ve been working really hard to find who i am again. or at least the me that i can be now. i feel like an absolute wreck, a crash out, a mid-life crisis divorced father stuck in a 23 year old girls body. it was nice to be reminded that all of that is just about being human. that it doesn’t define me. i am only evolving. i like that others can still see greatness in you even when you don’t feel it yourself.

@paiton

Feb 24, 2025

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@boxopen

I'm also 23, and I relate a lot to finding who I am. Except I'm not sure if I ever knew who I was. Im dealing with the grief of my own addictions right now. I'm happy you were given such a thoughtful comment, I know how much it probably meant to you. Love yourself, friend. ❤️

Feb 25, 2025

@majapapaya

we feel like a wreck - yet others still see us whole. like they can see something in us that we can’t. maybe that’s the truth - we’re not lost. just changing. grief doesn’t erase who you are. even now. someone sees you as someone to look up to. that has to mean something. maybe that’s what being human is - constAntly shifting between who we think we are and who others remind us we can be. griEf has a way of making everything feel unrecognizable. likE you’re walking through a house you used to live in but all the furniture is gone. it’s easy to believe that means you’ve lost yourself. but maybe you’re juSt in the middle of rearranging. maybe that emptiness isn’t losS but space for something new. the fact that someone looks up to you. says everything. even at your most unCertain - you are something worth admiring. even when you don’t feel steady - you are still standing. maybe you don’t have to find your way back. maybe you are aLready becoming eXactly who you’re supposed to be.

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