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Gaslighting yourself

particularly when your anxiety induced insomnia is making you think about stupid hypotheticals- I love being like “im sorry you feel that way even though it’s absolutely ridiculous. Like I’m sure you BELIEVE that someone cares enough to get into the second floor, through multiple locked doors, past your dog that barks at the wind and anyone that so much as approaches the door, and kill you. I just think you might be on your period or something” and then I remember my brain is being a little dumb and actually it’s okay to recognize that anxiety is straight up goofy sometimes

@bidgii

May 18, 2024

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EMETOPHOBIA...

gonna be extra real on here ! i have severe, debilitating emetophobia. like the kind that renders you agoraphobic. I've been an emetophobe since i was little but it's never been this bad before. i have panic attacks daily, I'm constantly exhausted and eating, sleeping, and going outside is becoming harder and harder as the days pass me by. do not be alarmed though, I'm in therapy and I'm on luvox although i wouldn't say the latter is working much. i went to knotts berry farm yesterday ! it was supposed to be a milestone in exposure, a really good one since lots of people filter in and out of the park every day. i ended up going on two rides, eating one churro, washing my hands thrice and kind of just calling it a day. plus it was super cold so it was just all just kind of a bummer. i decided to end the day on a good note and snag some peanuts merch (as u can see from my pfp, i am a HUGE woodstock fan), so i bought a Woodstock figurine and small plushie. best part of my day honestly, I'm glad i did that for myself. it is now the morning after and I'm sitting here just really nervous and panicky because I can't stop thinking about the possible illnesses i could have picked up at the park. i know I'll be ok no matter what ends up happening, and i have plans with my friend in about an hour so i'm still challenging myself and my instincts to hide. i just wanted to put it out into the world. emetophobia is shackling and limiting for a lot of people, and i also want people to know that they CAN do difficult things in the midst of it. my phobia and ocd has held me back in many situations but i don't want it to keep me from doing what i love. even though that knotts trip kind of sucked, the world didn't end and a day later i'm sitting here next to my super cute woodstock plushie. also that churro i got at the park was the best churro I've ever had !!! if u ever go to knotts u NEED to get a fresh churro they're so freaking good. you can do hard things. even if it sucks, that one experience doesn't have to control you. these are basically self-affirmations lmao. gonna go get brunch now with my friend bye bye !

@ikhk5087

Mar 27, 2025

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Saying you feel a little haunted instead of anxious/depressed

Like I am sometimes haunted by thoughts and thinking too much can be low key scary

@lndsy

Jan 30, 2025

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feelings :/

being seen and appreciated for who i am rather than being kept around out of convenience has truly been one of the most life changing things for me recently. i now have the confidence to use my discernment and make decisions about what is unnecessary and unwanted in my life. thinking about the difference in my quality of life makes me so emotional, i’m just feeling so many things at once. i’m happy but i feel like my youth has been spent feeling subhuman and unworthy. from now on i will love. i will surround myself with it at all times.

@celinekzn

Feb 17, 2025

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hi internet people :)

@celinekzn

Feb 17, 2025

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abandonment

i really need to work on my overly intense fear of abandonment... the fact that my immediate thought is that someone is mad at me and is going to leave me if they don't look at/like my story is ridiculous especially considering the fact that this person would rather die than hurt me :/ so hard to unlearn after years of being in that state of mind.

@celinekzn

Feb 19, 2025