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can`t believe im saying this but, im so exited to go back to uni after spending an entire month at home doing abseloutly 0 social activities
to be fair i did have a great time with myself and even tho im an introvert, not connecting with the outside world is not good for my mental state
its kinda like a black hole, pulling me deeper and deeper, the more i stay like this the more im scared to go out and talk to ppl
i dont wanna undo all the progress i made this year
when i remember how i was last year... feeling shitty all the time , scared of ppl, 0 friends
i dont want that to be me again
IM COMING OUT OF MY SHEEEELLLLLLL AND IM NOT SCARED
i crave ppl i crave connections i crave friendship
and honestly cringing at every little interaction i had at the end of the day is much better than sleeping knowing i wasted another day of my short little human life, leaving no memories for my older self to lok back at
Feb 13, 2025
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getting back into shit i liked in high school (dumb youtube, goth music, crazy outfits) and i feel fucking awesome
Jan 24, 2024
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UGH im so dissapointed with myself
two weeks ago i said ill go back to uni but i didnt, tried again this week, the second i stepped a foot into my dorm room i felt like shit so i packed my stuff took a lil nap cuz i woke up at 5am then commuted back to home
i also had plans with my friends tomorrow but i chickened out and canceled
im waaaaaaaaay too deep in my comfort zone
Feb 26, 2025
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i was far too busy getting completely obliterated to do so in my early 20s. (do not recommend.)
but the experience of doing schoolwork now feels like it did as a little kid. you know.. before puberty knocked me awake to the reality of my shitty home life, which caused a haze of depression to fall over me.
in my single digit years i remember being so excited to do school work, and feeling so proud of myself when i did well. im getting a taste of that again.
i never lost the exhilarating feeling i got from gaining knowledge that truly excites me. but itβs a beautiful new kinda thing with the added clarity gained from not being ripped on weed 24/7 and the added confidence gained from surviving the shit hand that was given to me as a kid.
hang in there ποΈ
Oct 28, 2024
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will my fingerprint be permanently changed
Mar 5, 2025
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UGH im so dissapointed with myself
two weeks ago i said ill go back to uni but i didnt, tried again this week, the second i stepped a foot into my dorm room i felt like shit so i packed my stuff took a lil nap cuz i woke up at 5am then commuted back to home
i also had plans with my friends tomorrow but i chickened out and canceled
im waaaaaaaaay too deep in my comfort zone
Feb 26, 2025
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tomorrow is the day i go back to uni
it feels more like a wedding day and im the bride AAAAAAAAAAA
im trying to give myself a mini glow up to make myself feel better
Feb 15, 2025