Iām a senior in high school. Iāve always been scared of growing upāchange used to twist my stomach. I liked the routine: the same halls, the same faces, the predictability of it all.
but now? I want change more than anything. I want to take my exams, get into college, and finallyĀ breathe. high school has given me everything it couldāevery storyline played out. Iāve laughed, cried, gone through every clichĆ©. thereās nothing left to squeeze out of this chapter
I remember being a junior, thinking Iād be heartbroken to leave. but I outgrew that feeling faster than I expectedā¦
I think rewatchingĀ FriendsĀ for the fourth time is helping. that show has this way of making me feel okay even when everythingās uncertain. like, maybe itās fine not to have it all figured out. maybe change isnāt something to fear but something to lean into
I want to grow. I want to step into new adventures, new messes, new moments that donāt feel like reruns. Iām still scared, a little. but I want this now
change doesnāt mean losing who I amāit means becoming more of who Iām meant to be