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Every weekend I’ve made it a ritual to get breakfast at the same place by myself and journal. I’m pushing 30 and almost all of my friends my age are in loving long-term relationships. Sometimes I’m resentful and sometimes I remember I’m on my own journey of self healing that has been proven by the universe time and time again (however painfully) that I cannot bring someone on this journey with me.
So I go to breakfast alone, I go to my local haunt alone, order a cider and read in silence. Sometimes I talk to people that approach me and other times I’m simply an observer. Sometimes it feels like a muscle I need to train to make the effort to do these things for myself and other times I love the feeling of being in my own world amongst strangers in theirs.
But I keep going and I keep exploring and I keep holding space and dreaming and hoping and yearning. And sometimes it’s painful and sometimes its exactly where I need to be.
Jul 27, 2024
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Grab a couple friends, watch (once per week, together or separately) classics/canonicals you otherwise would never have gotten around to, discuss irl or on Zoom. Feel free to hate, but also feel free to love
There is literally no other way to get yourself to watch Jeanne Dielman, but boy-oh-boy you’ll be happy you did
Jan 30, 2024
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For film screenings and events around nyc/ recommendations.
Oct 10, 2023
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easiest $25/month to convince myself I have
Feb 12, 2024
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I’ve spent too many years of my life giving my power away. To people whose own insecurities couldn’t bare to stomach my light, to lovers with savior complexes who needed me to be wounded to love or vice versa abandoning myself to build up others only for them to walk away and be better for someone else.
I’ve had to humble myself and acknowledge that I’ve attracted emotionally or physically unavailable people that mirrored my own avoidance and unavailability to self.
Well fuck that.
I’m not doing that anymore. My power is my own and I’m going to get and be as big and bright as possible. I want to be blinding.
Jul 26, 2024
I’ve been creating monthly playlists with songs both new and old of any genre since 2020!
These are a collection of tunes I’ve been listening to this past month, kind of like a musical diary of sorts…
Artists include: Devon Again, Fiona Apple, Cherry Glazerr, Childish Gambino, etc.
P.S. MUST listen in order!
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Jul 25, 2024
Well yes!
This is the first release under my new artist moniker produced by my close friend dakotablue
It’s industrial, gothic feminine rage.
The delusion taking over into insanity.
Peep! 👀
Jul 26, 2024