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i am fully aware that i am thinking about her, and possibly, probably not the other way around. that's because she is not mine, the crush is mine!!! an important distinction: a crush is not the relationship, it is separate, however informed it may be by the actual relationship. a crush does not necessarily capture or define the woman of its desire. a crush does not concern itself with accuracy, however detailed it might be. my crush is an overgrown weed of curiosity and attention. it is my fantasy, my story to tell myself.
which is to say, it's my creation. i am behind it. though the attention and ideation is about her, i am responsible. it's important to take such responsibility, to understand i am the one generating feelings of possibility, romance, hope, butterflies, foolishness, self-consciousness, and to not only accept this responsibility, but claim ownership and to be in on it.
of course, this is my ham-fisted attempt at a semblance of control that derives from the agony and ecstasy of having no control.
which is to say, it's my creation. i am behind it. though the attention and ideation is about her, i am responsible. it's important to take such responsibility, to understand i am the one generating feelings of possibility, romance, hope, butterflies, foolishness, self-consciousness, and to not only accept this responsibility, but claim ownership and to be in on it.
of course, this is my ham-fisted attempt at a semblance of control that derives from the agony and ecstasy of having no control.
Jul 9, 2025
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š©thereās something about dedicating a piece of your heart & imagination to a person, often, for me, with zero reciprocation.
the desire to love & be loved growing stronger everyday, dreams flooded with their smile, voice.
i like to think iām happy with the made-up scenarios & longing looks, or maybe iām just a coward.
the desire to love & be loved growing stronger everyday, dreams flooded with their smile, voice.
i like to think iām happy with the made-up scenarios & longing looks, or maybe iām just a coward.
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šHaving a crush at work is wild. Iāve decided to keep it as just thatāa crushāwhich means absolutely no interactions with this person. I want to stay focused at work, but let me be clear: it doesnāt make them any less BEAUTIFUL.
Sometimes, I let myself steal a glance, feeling that thrilling rush while thinking, āWhat if they can tell how I feel just by looking at my eyes?āAnd then, of course, the terrifying follow-up: āWhat if the answer is yes?!ā Itās pure chaos in my head.
But hereās the kicker āI recently found out he has a girlfriend. When I heard that, believe me, I wanted to evaporate on the spot. But I couldnāt, because, of course, itās just a crush š
So now, here I am: heartbroken over someone Iāve never spoken to and never will speak to.
Sometimes, I let myself steal a glance, feeling that thrilling rush while thinking, āWhat if they can tell how I feel just by looking at my eyes?āAnd then, of course, the terrifying follow-up: āWhat if the answer is yes?!ā Itās pure chaos in my head.
But hereās the kicker āI recently found out he has a girlfriend. When I heard that, believe me, I wanted to evaporate on the spot. But I couldnāt, because, of course, itās just a crush š
So now, here I am: heartbroken over someone Iāve never spoken to and never will speak to.
Jan 28, 2025
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š„°Having a crush takes over my life!!! It becomes the main thing I think about and I also feel extremely silly. I wear nicer outfits in case I see them, and that's usually when I try out new hairstyles. I become a lot more giddy and giggly and I get so many butterflies that I lose the urge to stress eat and eat just because I'm bored. I also daydream and wonder if they like me back or if I'm overanalyzing every encounter we have.
It's so fun having a crush because it makes my life so much more interesting and exciting, but then I think about it too much a,nd I can't read or watch TV or do anything because it will all remind me of them! Do I wish I had a crush right now? Yes. When I get one, will I wish I didn't have one? Also yes.
It's so fun having a crush because it makes my life so much more interesting and exciting, but then I think about it too much a,nd I can't read or watch TV or do anything because it will all remind me of them! Do I wish I had a crush right now? Yes. When I get one, will I wish I didn't have one? Also yes.
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š¤just compliment them! just tell them you love their outfit! just tell them their haircut is perfect and you can't find that on pinterest! tell them "i like you," so their brain can relax and they can just be. tell them when you're reminded of something they said or taught you. tell them "i was thinking about you!" and mean it.
...this is just the pep talk i needed
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extend the life of your clothes by covering holes or stains with embroidery floss and yarn while giving them new cool zombie flair! you donāt even have to be neat, the more imperfect the weave the more organic the result. the best mended garments are almost fungal, covered in sick multi-colored lichen.
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š¬I beg of you get to the point. texting is not an instant messenger and I have not committed to a conversation / to being on my phone all day. you have no idea how this text finds me.