lately ive been in touch with someone who i have a lot of complicated emotions about and in general ive been trying 2 be very level headed about it, 2 not go 2 hard in either direction. however yesterday we kind of ended up having a more relaxed and honest talk which then led 2 me pretty much spilling my guts out
i mainly wanted 2 give decent advice about a thing we both struggle with from a perspective of a person who lived and coped with it longer and that partially went into a lot more of a harsh subject matter. it seemed pretty useful at first but then the conversation slowed 2 a crawl and it was just me talking about my previous pain into the void
i don't exactly regret it, after all if we are 2 be close again in any shape or form we got 2 be honest with each other, but it still sucks because i went somewhere that's very much a sore subject for me and presumably for them. pulling this kind of act is pretty difficult emotionally and I just woke up and im still thinking about it
