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My mom had a stroke a month ago, she almost died. I hadn’t really been in contact with her because she’s unstable and bipolar and unfortunately refuses any psychiatric help. I feel like a monster because I was hoping that the accident would make her kinder — but kindness isn’t usually a side effect of a stroke. I hate this period of my life. I just want to stop thinking and feeling. This whole situation reminds me that I’m not enough — not a good enough daughter, not thin enough, not mature enough, not present enough, not helpful enough. Once again, I feel like I’m facing a child, when all I want to do is scream, ‘I’M YOUR CHILD, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF ME!’ I feel so selfish for wanting her to take care of me when she almost died. But honestly, whether it’s her or someone else, it doesn’t matter — I just desperately want someone to take care of me
Jun 19, 2025
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When you feel so ill you’ve made peace with death and are weeping from pain or discomfort and wallowing in the deepest well of self-pity and fearing you’ll never feel okay again throw a soft ‘mommy’ out there. It’s kinda like meditation in acknowledging how hellish you feel and that your mom would probably make you feel better if she was there (I mean I don’t know your mom I only know my mom) and kinda helps you accept the situation and that like all previous illnesses this too will pass (probably) and this is just how it feels right now and pretending it isn’t as bad as it is just makes it worse. Calling out for mommy just kinda recognizes how low you feel and makes it easier to keep feeling bad for yourself and sometimes the best way to get over a virus is to wallow on the sofa remembering to drink clear fluids every now and again feeling like the unluckiest person in the world. Have not tried this around roommates or other people so cannot extend the recommendation to all living situations.
May 8, 2025
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🧦Today I called my mom because my life feels really out of control right now. I’ve been trying to do it all by myself but today I broke down. Today I felt like I couldn’t fight anymore. This is what she said to me:
“I love you. I know who you are. You know who you are. Everything is fine. I will always be here with you.”
“I love you. I know who you are. You know who you are. Everything is fine. I will always be here with you.”
Mar 5, 2024
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🫂Cause I love her and she’s great. Sometimes life throws crap our way but I have her.
Apr 2, 2025
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Jun 26, 2025
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We’ve known each other since kindergarten, we grew up together, and even though I wasn’t always kind to her in middle school, she never held it against me. We started to feel sad around the same time, and each of us became the other’s refuge. She has always encouraged me and given me the strength to do slightly crazy things; when we were fifteen, we’d find ourselves standing in the middle of a field at one in the morning, in the dark, just because I was feeling down. She’s taken care of me after I hurt myself. I watched her lose herself in her last relationship. She’s the only family I see at Christmas. We can laugh for ten minutes just by looking at each other
Right now I’m on holiday in my hometown, and I can go see her whenever I want. We meet at night, smoke cigarettes, and watch movies. She takes better care of me than my boyfriend ever does
A few days ago, we spent a wonderful morning in her garden, in the sun, with fresh air all around us. For the first time in years, life almost felt pleasant. The colors of the plants and flowers were so beautiful, and we didn’t even talk that much—we just ate some fruit (which she washed for me). I told her about my favorite movie and she watched it that same night; she told me about her favorite fruit and I bought it for her the next day
I don’t care about men, because she exists. I love her with all my heart, and I want to take her to the beach
Right now I’m on holiday in my hometown, and I can go see her whenever I want. We meet at night, smoke cigarettes, and watch movies. She takes better care of me than my boyfriend ever does
A few days ago, we spent a wonderful morning in her garden, in the sun, with fresh air all around us. For the first time in years, life almost felt pleasant. The colors of the plants and flowers were so beautiful, and we didn’t even talk that much—we just ate some fruit (which she washed for me). I told her about my favorite movie and she watched it that same night; she told me about her favorite fruit and I bought it for her the next day
I don’t care about men, because she exists. I love her with all my heart, and I want to take her to the beach
Jul 10, 2025
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He turned his head just as I took the photo, definitely not camera shy
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