I donât know if this applies to everyone as we seem to be peak hustle culture to survive the gig economy but I have a lot of free time, so much free time itâs overwhelming, that I pander in all sorts of unhelpful ways. Just saw something about someone who makes exquisite jewelry in their free time, it not being their day job, and am having a long hard think about how tired I really am when I claim to be too tired to work on the thing I claim to want to doâŠI also think about kids my age getting married and who may start having kids in the next few years (aside from the ones who already have) and how much of a time drain that is and how some day Iâll probably look back on this point and think I was swimming in time. Would probably help to start on the phone addiction firstâŠSometimes I think itâs possible Iâm not as tired as I am, like focusing on how tired I am, trying to measure exactly how heavy my bones feel, only amplifies my tiredness into perceived exhaustion and maybe if I didnât think about it so much it wouldnât be as real as I let it, like the cold in winter.