Friends are the lifeline of who I am. Genuinely, I cannot begin to express how much my life has changed because of the many wonderful and amazing individuals Iāve had the pleasure of calling friends.
But lately, itās been hard to conceptualize the idea that I might hold the same level of importance in other peopleās lives.
There are people I consider close friends
and even a couple Iād call my best friends. And I fuck with that sappy shit, Iāll never shy away from telling a nigga how much they mean to me.
But even then, there are days when I canāt shake the feeling that Iām easier to leave than I am to keep. That maybe Iāve gotten too comfortable. Or that Iāve forgotten how fleeting presence can be and how even the warmest juiciest ātrust the processā bond can vanish into silence.
The thought that I could be expendable is terrifying. It makes me antsy, worried, and scared that you might not be here a year from now ultimately I just hope that one day, Iāll believe my presence is enough. And when I do I hope youāll be there to overthink about it with me
Iāll always love you big dogsā¤ļø
