you should try to have more pleasant experiences. for instance i'm reading JJK for the first time. i am also trying to join my students in writing an 80-page MS over the course of the next 8 months. i am unsure whether posting on here will bring me more happiness, or less, and also it's making me think of substack, which i have generally neglected. so now i'll make an effort to post on everything until i get bored.