i was just having fun frolicking around, being myself and this pic captured it and made me feel so beautiful, like is this what you see when you look at me??
I found this photo of myself circa ~1994 and loved my energy in it. Itโs a tight crop from a larger photo that included my parents. Not sure if this was genuine or a bit of a pose (I can be a ham) but the ennui captures more of my internal energy as an adult than I felt as a kid. Because while Iโm a pretty hopeful, positive person, this photo is also how the world - and the experience of being a person in it - can make me feel at least once a day.
I was going through pictures from this month and I remember looking exceptionally good that day but this photo somehow didn't catch my eye before. As I caught a glimpse of it in the process of playing around with some editing apps, I saw its beauty, I saw mine too. So effortless yet not careless, with some mystery
it's helped me get through so many tasks i've dreaded or was too depressed or bogged down in the details to do. even just sitting in silence with another human working on their own thing is helpful. even if it's virtual! sometimes it's just hard to do stuff alone. and talking through stuff with someone who has more grace for me than i do can help get me out of my head
