I have always had these ideas about so many things in society being so stupid and unreasonable but never felt comfortable enough to stand in those ideas and actually believe them with my whole heart.
But I started hiking relatively recently, and being in the middle of nature I sort of realized we're so insignificant.
A speck of dust that will eventually be erased whole by the circle of nature and completely tiny and meaningless along the eons of earth.
I decided not to throw myself into that existential hole but it definitely affected how I saw everything around me. And I sort of decided that while there are moral rules in society that definitely are there whether they're written or not and are definitely for the good, I also sort of accepted that so SO many things are made up, tails people created for a variety of reasons and that, I wasn't born in this big world just for someone to tell me what is the right way of existing, or to tell me the right way to live the insignificant and tiny amount of time I'll be here in this planet.
All the definitions of being I might fit in according to the world, are completely meaningless outside the human mind, all completely made up just so we can explain ourselves the world we live in, imaginary cages. All concepts of superior gender, superior race, superior religion, superior culture, superior or inferior, are ALL MADE UP. and none of that defines me, I am, at the end something completely undefinable, man or woman or human or this or that- No. People might have a definition for me but as long as I realize it is all made up so people can feel they made something out of their existence, then it doesn't really define me at all. And it is completely liberating, to know I can choose to play the game the same way everyone plays it or just go on creative mode, however I want.