I don't try harder at work than I did at school for the money- if they had paid me in school I'd probably still have skipped constantly. I'm not really sure why. Maybe it's because I can actually get fired from my job for not doing the basic tasks and showing up, so it's more scary, bigger consequences?
I also felt very stuck in school, I would get distracted so easily and just not be interested in the subject at all. And of course when I was actually interested, I would struggle to complete the technical parts- the homework, tests, and the such.
Now that I have the choice to be in College or to be working, I feel more confident in myself and my ability to get tasks done. However, I still feel undereducated- I skipped a lot of my classes, and the ones that I didn't, I haven't retained any information from them.
I still don't know how to do basic division, I couldn't point out where half the states are on the map, and I couldn't tell you who any of the early presidents were other than Lincoln and Washington.
I feel incompetent and frankly disrespectful towards others for not knowing these basic skills, but now that I'm working as a manager six days a week, I just don't have time to learn. I'm exhausted by the end of the day and really only have the energy to take a shower and go straight to bed.
I'm only 19 which gives me some consolation that I have time, but considering what's happening in the world now, I wish I had more knowledge in current and past issues.
help! ahhh