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I can’t focus today- I don’t make art with the intention of it telling a story- however- I would like to think this one is about a girl who just moved to California with her spiffy boots
im open to other story lines though
Apr 9, 2025
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i forgot my headphones at home. i was about to either
1) pump black country new road
2) watch brooklyn 99.
i miss being passionate about things, not being able to sleep, eat, speak,
or fathom anything beyond the apple
of my eye and the fruit of my thoughts.
i miss waking up with one thing in mind, how i would explore it that day, and how i would explore it the next
it’s been people
it’s been sewing
guitar
driving
religion
philosophy
photography
writing
filming
blogging
i think, regardless of any tik tok data explosion with the intention of ripping out each of my brain cells to keep me submissive and docile because of a wrecked attention span, i’m not a girl of her commitments- i get bored.
and i am bored. i feel this lack of passion so deeply in my body, its been a catalyst for the recent crashouts ive had ( and there’s been plenty) i don’t know how to stay, and work hard, and allow myself to grow to what i want to be right in this instance. not to shine my own shoes, but i’m not super used to being bad at things. i’ve always always always coasted, and now that im trying to be a gaf (give a fuck) filled girl, ive realized, sucking at something hurts a lot more when you’ve put in the work to be good at it.
if it wasn’t me writing this, and my best friend called me and told me this word for word, i would tell her how normal that feeling was, and that she herself knew what to do; commit. and that is my advice, dear sweet amalia, commit, commit, commit.
Feb 18, 2025
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I have for the longest time had a long ongoing story in my mind that I think about whenever I’m bored.
Waiting in the line at a grocery store? Sitting in a waiting room?
Let me think about this story with these characters in my head.
Free TV with my imagination.
I have tried writing it down several times but it just steals the magic. There can be plot holes and things that don’t make sense because nobody knows about this.
Probably a symptom of my mental illness but I quite enjoy it.
Feb 8, 2025
catered to your exact moment regardless of if someone will understand
ex. i left my bed mid-An American in Paris to walk to get al pastor tacos, et voilà
Feb 24, 2024
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I love them- kind of like a window into someone’s life.
Especially when the people are much older and their houses are stamped with the time period. I was in one today that was insanely retro- straight out of the 70s
but then I found 2 wheelchairs next to each other- I got upset and had to leave
Apr 12, 2025
I tend to worry so much about what others think that it’s blocking my ability to be creative and live life in the way we were intended to.
What I pin on Pinterest, what music I’m listening to, what I post on Instagram, what posts I like (bc my name could come up on the “liked by”) all feels so performative And like each thing I do is very strategic and thought out bc I’m worried it will affect someone’s perception of me.
this translates to my art too. Before I’ve even created something, I’m thinking about how it will be perceived when it’s done- will people like it? Is it unique enough? Etc
I want to start doing things on account of whether or not it makes me happy, or if I think it looks good
That’s why I don’t plan on sharing my picture or name on this account. I like the idea that I can share ideas and thoughts and random things with no physical appearance or preconceived notion attatched
All of this is very obvious- like yes I shouldn’t be doing these things for approval and that’s not what these apps were created for. Just something I struggle with and wanted to share
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Apr 10, 2025