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In my closet, I discovered a hidden door that led to a new room—I guess the door was in plain sight all along; I could just never bring myself to look and see what was behind it.
The first time I opened the door, the room was filled with men’s clothing and belongings that had been abandoned; I got the sense that they had been there a long time, but they just as easily could have last been touched yesterday. He told me to leave everything alone in the room, not to touch anything; that it wasn’t mine to take. I looked around, lingering for a long moment—everything somehow looked familiar. I closed the door shut. I wondered how anyone could have left so many beautiful things behind.
Secretly, I returned again to the room when I had some time alone and found it filled with women’s things now: little treasures and mementos and knick-knacks (he hates my knick-knacks because they are so frivolous and take up space and needlessly create clutter, he says in waking life, ever cold and rational) of a life well-lived; fabulous stylish accoutrements that would perfectly elevate an outfit; glamorous gowns that seemed like they would fit me and hug my curves just right.
In the corner, I found a wedding dress made of delicate shimmering off-white silk and organza, flowers hand-embroidered onto it with care. I ran my hands over it. It took my breath away.
I woke up with the song I had been listening to last night playing in my head.
Mar 1, 2025

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my friend once told me that if you dream of a familiar space with a new room or extension, that means your consciousness is expanding so...
Mar 4, 2025
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wakaport yesss 💛 I know exactly what this one represents and it felt like getting hit on the head with a plank LOL
Mar 4, 2025
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Girl don’t say shit Like to to me u know how I am about dreams too
Mar 1, 2025
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imkhushi it’s a LOT
Mar 1, 2025
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tater this is so well written and so well remembered, i need to know how u do your dream journaling!!! i scrawl it down in an iphone note and it comes out only half-intelligible because i’m writing it with one eye closed still covered in that thin veil of sleep. do you write it down and rewrite it or does your brain just work this beautifully first thing in the morning???
Mar 1, 2025
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worldonfire THANK YOU!!! The crazy thing is that I actually woke up and grabbed my phone and immediately started banging this out first thing while these details were still in my mind and then posted it from bed before I had my coffee. Usually I just type everything out as an inventory of details ASAP without caring how it's written just noting the facts and events, but recently I’ve been going back to notes app entries of dreams I’ve had and rewriting them in narrative form so I had some practice. I’ve been doing all of my best writing first thing in the morning lately I don’t know what got into me!
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you know, all i like to write about is love.  writing is easier when it’s about your own personal experiences of grief, of pain but love is the beautiful dove of the two  released at a funeral, released at a wedding. , because the definition is different for everybody.

the trees rustle again tonight, and the wind gently taps on the windowpane, begging again to be let in and my thoughts race farther and faster in the night than a pure-bred, hot-blooded racehorse, bucking wild for the first time my mind buzzes, stricken like a gong, reverberating in the quietness of tonight as i drag myself closer to you, you reach out for me, an unspoken, gentle and devout prayer, asking for me in the unspeakable words conveyed in a whisper through actions – i promised you a fantastical world of your own, where you are safe, through my own creation. i have created for you in the heart of my own somewhere for me to love you,  fully and infinitely with all of myself. if this is not where you are safe, then there is nothing else. –  word by word and sentence by sentence i create dreams i would never tell anybody not even under the skies of a cloudless night. when i sleep, i tuck my hopes and sadness under my pillow and hope a fairy will kidnap it and place in that spot something i should need more. but night after night, my dreams just macerate in the container of my heart. soon, i will drink them like an elixir of truth and what i am afraid of will come
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I have this historical tendency where the second I get the sudden unmistakable feeling that a home is no longer forever, I stop tending to it. Dirty clothes pile up, the washed laundry sits unfolded, clutter accumulates, and I no longer wish to decorate. I disengage because my future is no longer tethered to this place; I’m being pulled forward from elsewhere and it’s only a matter of time.
I apologize for my inactivity, my malaise; I tell them that I’m going through a rough time and struggling to fully function. I’m feeling burnt out after years treading water with a cinderblock tied to my ankle and I worry day and night about external forces beyond my control that threaten to sink us both. They tell me there’s always an excuse; that I’m perpetually miserable and dissatisfied; that I only care about myself.
Of course, I’m not the only person living in this house. They’ve long since absconded from their share of the duty to this space we inhabit together, and yet I’m the one who is accused of giving up.
Every week for a decade, I’ve been matching their socks into pairs, rolling up their underwear, and promptly hanging up their clothing fresh out of the dryer to prevent wrinkles from setting in—and they didn’t even notice. They told me they were perfectly happy rummaging through the laundry basket every day.
Sometimes they will wash my clothes—delicates tossed in with T-shirts, jeans thrown in the dryer and tumbled until they shrink—but nobody has ever put away my laundry but me.
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