i finally got a chance to say that tonight. that the long standing pain and confusion i found myself in finally gave way to a deeper understanding of my inner workings.
the beat thing i learned how to do was talk honestly with the people i hold dear. its terrifying, but absolutely worth sticking your neck out to get the help and clarity you need. goodnight fellas ๐ซถ
I finally admitted to a friend over some delicious Indian food that the perceived romantic undertone is mutual.
it felt good to address it bluntly and we kind of just grinned for the rest of the night.
i need to do this shit again honestly
cannot overstate how fucking helpful it is to be able to process externally with someone that doesnโt actually know you and has tools to decode your rhetoric to the essence of what youโre actually saying. if nothing else it feels like having a metric ton of weight lifted off your back. shit is honestly incredible when you get a good one
wanted to make a mace out of one of those spiky seed pods, and put it stretching down the outside of my arm so it would bend and move with my elbow. what do we think chat?
it really sucks to lend a lot of time and effort to something, only to realize it doesnt light you up as much as you thought it would.
that just happened to me. however, it means i have more energy to put into the things that make me feel good. :)
