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-> outs -insisting on dealing with things on my own -bottling things up -complex yearning -lying, to myself even -refusing change in routine -> ins -liking myself -making equal time for everything -empathy and feeling my own feelings -being good on my own -listening -being able to describe myself -saving my money lol -write, write, write, be it songs journal reflection or research
Jan 17, 2025

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-> ins - enjoying time alone - listening to newer music - being a better friend - practicing my instruments more - reading rather than skimming - creativity - making an actual covers account? -> outs - losing myself to the same computer routine - living the same day over and over - waiting for things to happen to me - misery
Jan 15, 2025
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IN -creativity -chai-der -routines -movement breaks -cultivating wonder -community organizing -live theater -budgeting -making strange acquaintances -picking up interesting rocks -introspection -having a laugh with friends -baths -the elderly OUT -looksmaxxing -directing self-hatred outward -people-pleasing -remembering past G.P.A.s -curated vintage t-shirts -booktok -using therapy speak to gossip -identical bridesmaid dresses -listening to playlists for nostalgia purposes -intermittent fasting -playing things by ear take note: more things are in than out!
Jan 15, 2025
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in  creating for fun — alone & w/friends sharing online without self judgement  flirting w/no expectation deactivating w/no reason intentional friendships community as a verb following my own timeline completing books mindful journaling collecting hobbies like shells straightforwardness  game nights  internal validation thoughtful approach to physical affection home cooked meals asking for favors  financial independence  multiple streams of income  healthy dose of delusion  intense eye contact  intentional dates  out over self indulgence in rest  non reciprocal relationships over explaining  overthinking shit that doesn’t require an overthought  self inflicted emotional sadism  frivolous spending  babying men — in the workplace & in friendships  keeping clothing items that have been unworn for months  random hookups  living paycheck to paycheck keeping the peace in toxic environments wishing ppl who did you wrong well after (in fact were not even gonna wish them anything) after hours 
Jan 23, 2025

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-there was a recent time where i met someone, someone very sweet and interesting. we talked and talked, and no matter how much i'd ever see them again, i was okay with myself. to me, they were an anomaly in the people i met, because they were that remarkable to me. i walked away from them fulfilled, as i repeated to myself in my head "even if i don't see them again i'll be okay". -i've always held on to those kinds of experiences, minus the acceptance. that's what's new with this one. -first it was holding on to the memories of people who i couldn't see anymore due to moving, then it was holding on to the things we did. in elementary, the people that befriended me had a binder and we'd draw and play characters all written in that one binder during recess. -one of those friends, kaden, moved away in 6th grade without telling anyone. with how much i've moved state to state, i completely understand why he did that or why he couldn't do anything about it. i've thought about disappearing, without anyone looking or having to worry about me. but, me being the person i am i couldn't forget him. -the last move i have to do is this year. it won't even be out of my control because of it's that of college. my house won't be *my house* and it won't retain the shape it wrapped me around with. -i live in myself and i'm learning to stop disappearing from myself, because in the end that is impossible. -so, when i met this said person recently, i acknowledged that i could miss this person forever, but also the hope to meet people like them that i could keep forever. that there are good people i can be good to so, when i leave, i want to accept that *things can happen again*. don't know if this made much sense
Jan 24, 2025
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i like gaining knowledge and checking their sources. on occasion i edit articles on wikipedia. right now, i’m obsessed with studying math on it. i usually always land on the page about quaternions. def don’t use wikipedia as your source of knowledge though, make sure to check citations and read yourself!!!
Jan 14, 2025
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- happy snowstorm to those experiencing it. over time i’ve been quite used to my environment changing around me. i know with how much control i’ve exhibited that it hasn’t been a case of myself lacking control or my *will* being meaningless, but rather the way i wake up. - in the past few months, i shut myself off in attempts to minimize whatever i was feeling. i’m still guilty of it but, looking at pictures of myself before i turned out this way makes me see that even if i can’t see how my behavior’s changed, i can see the physical. this is a very stupid and literal reference, but “changes” by david bowie goes as such: / Ch-ch-changes, just gonna have to be a different man Time may change me But I can’t trace time / time will change us. no matter what, but our efforts will amount to something if we try imitating its grip! facing it first, (grimly) succumbing to time could be what makes us change. there’s times where my change isn’t my priority. i’m guilty of wondering how other people think of me now, when i will never be able to know such “hows”. i get scared, terrified of how someone else may have changed, and like with how the physical changes are the most obvious, the aspect that sets in the most fear for me is seeing how people physically change. it’s an odd feeling. you meet who you’re going to be in the future, in each fleeting moment, but once that isn’t in your control, and you’re facing what you can’t lie about, you can’t stop how your environment changes. people look different, their perceptions of you change. all you can do is think what you could do differently, or accept everything. accept who you’re going to be and everything you’re not.
Jan 19, 2025