I actually did a self check in today! My takeaway: I have been in an extremely good place since April, and I'm the happiest I've ever been in like 5 yrs ✨ Currently, so many doors are opening for me at the same time. I would have never imagined I would be where I am right now, wasn't my plan. I know change is inevitable and necessary for growth, but man, it can be scary! I've never felt these feelings and lived these moments, and I don't know what to make of it sometimes. I get so anxious when something good happens, when will I go back to feeling horrible? How will this be ruined? I'm getting better at not thinking this way, but I have moments where I remember, yeah, I struggle with my depression/anxiety immensely, but what's the point of anticipating its comeback? I've done so much work this past year and have learned to love myself and be my own bff <3 But I still feel lonely at times. I have amazing friends/fam and fill my days with things that bring me joy but at the end of the day it is just me, myself, and I. Days like these I wish I could share my life with someone else. But that's not the case... so why feed into it.... I love life and I love feeling sad temporarily. Its all gonna work out, no need to stress