as i’m moving through life and moving through different relationships i’ve realised that i really just crave meaningful connection. no matter under what label or circumstance i meet someone, i want to feel like i matter.
i feel, sometimes, so hopeless in this goal of making meaningful connections bc so many people that ive been friends with have turned out to be worse people than i thought them to be. whether its them changing into someone i don’t recognise, or showing true colours when we discuss values, i just am at a point where i really struggle to form relationships.
but theres a few people in my life who i just have to think about and immediately my mind lights up!
i find that i can have a bit of an all or nothing attitude. that is, i had a shit day therefore i’ve always had shit days and will forever have shit days, or like now, i struggle making meaningful connections therefore none of my connections have been, are, or will ever be meaningful
maybe it’s just past 9pm and i should go sleep…
