I met with a friend yesterday that I haven’t seen or really spoken to in months. We discovered that during the month of January we both endured similarly painful experiences of being wanted my someone and wanting them in return, only to have that person take everything back within the span of a couple days.
It’s a really confusing and jarring feeling and it’s like mourning something that hasn’t even had the chance to begin. During this conversation We reflected a lot on our generation (mid twenties) and how apathetic so many people have become. When did it become a crime to want and be wanted??
As much as I’ve been finding myself and have been on a real journey of self fulfillment lately, I still find myself aching with the loss of this person, or maybe the feeling this person gave me. I wish that someone could love me in the way that I love. I wish oversharing wasn’t a word in our vocabulary and that we could speak freely and from the heart at all times. Im so done being casual and nonchalant and apathetic; I care so much I can’t stand it.