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If you only know Doja Cat from her hit singles, viral TikTok sounds, and trollish online antics, you might be surprised to learn that she had a deep career on Soundcloud long before she would first boldly declare "bitch, I'm a cow".
As a teenager, Doja would scour YouTube for songs to turn into beats and vocalize over. One such song was Com Truise's Brokendate, which forms the foundation of 4 morant (better luck next time), uploaded to Soundcloud in 2012 when Doja was only 16 or 17 years old. She eventually took down the song, and generally refuses to acknowledge it (likely due to the very personal lyrics), but it recently had an official release under Com Truise (to whom she did not give credit in her initial upload).
As for why I recommend it: this song is just perfect for those late nights when you're in that dissonant state of hurting deeply while being too apathetic to acknowledge or do anything about it. You feel stuck and a bit impulsive and very alone. Damn, no one gets it. Then in a sudden moment of clarity, emotion comes spilling over you. I cry from my eyes to my feet, stairs to the street to the gutters to the seas. You sit in that feeling for a while, but then it washes away, and you're left in your habitual resignation. Sigh... better luck next time. Better luck next time.
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I have always really loved the song and I find it melancholic and unsettling, yet hopeful. It has this almost lazy groove in some parts of it, and this almost chaotic thrumming beat in other parts of it. When I close my eyes and sway to it I don't feel self conscious at all, I just float and nod my head. I think people would hear it and think of all the times I have put this song on and just danced about and it'd make them smile.
Aug 2, 2024
I'm so so happy that Normani finally released her debut album, but this song RIGHT CHERE???? I think it's actually one of the knockouts of the entire project
Not only is the album itself an incredibly solid R&B record but when she makes music about the darker deeper tones of a subject??? Whoaaaaa
The harmonies btwn her and James kill me every time I have to start the song over again once he comes on bc it makes my heart STOP
Jun 18, 2024
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okay basic ass suggestion ik but i have to speak on this. diD yOu kNoW tAmE iMpaLa iS jUsT oNe gUy?!? this album is my favorite album and i don’t think anything else compares. this album got me THROUUGHHH it. every lyric is its own piece of wisdom. when im sad i listen to this and im guaranteed to feel at least 15% better afterwards. the progression from the start with let it happen through to eventually and all the way to new person, same old mistakes is perfect. it’s not only! a sonic journey! it’s also! an emotional one!💔 like when in doubt i turn to this and im like okay. i got it. i know what i have to do. and then i do it. some may call this letting it happen….
Mar 26, 2024
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I don't have a ton of music making experience outside of writing songs for myself and doing nothing with them. but I'd love to do more. This is all I have that's public:
space worm - a collaboration with 2 other students/friends. I did the lyrics, melody, and vocals. fun fact we only had 1 day to record the vocals so I was singing for 5 hours straight with no breaks and I wanted to cry. good times
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santa baby - worked on this with my cool producer friend... it was very fun! but probably not the vibe for January lol
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Feb 1, 2024
It's a 2 minute short film about Agnès Varda's cat, Zgougou. Adorable, heartwarming and imbued with Agnès Varda's joyful spirit.
Feb 1, 2024
aside from being incredible brain candy, this... remix (?) of a thousand miles genuinely feels like an emotional experience the depths and simultaneous ridiculousness of which the original could never reach. something about those pitched up vocals, man.
i had it on repeat for the entirety of august/september 2023 and now i can't listen to it without reminiscing about the exact genre of anxiety i had at the time. this was like, 5-6 months ago mind you. and that complete time-collapse of nostalgia, well, it all just feels so daria-core...
Jan 29, 2024