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If you only know Doja Cat from her hit singles, viral TikTok sounds, and trollish online antics, you might be surprised to learn that she had a deep career on Soundcloud long before she would first boldly declare "bitch, I'm a cow".
As a teenager, Doja would scour YouTube for songs to turn into beats and vocalize over. One such song was Com Truise's Brokendate, which forms the foundation of 4 morant (better luck next time), uploaded to Soundcloud in 2012 when Doja was only 16 or 17 years old. She eventually took down the song, and generally refuses to acknowledge it (likely due to the very personal lyrics), but it recently had an official release under Com Truise (to whom she did not give credit in her initial upload).
As for why I recommend it: this song is just perfect for those late nights when you're in that dissonant state of hurting deeply while being too apathetic to acknowledge or do anything about it. You feel stuck and a bit impulsive and very alone. Damn, no one gets it. Then in a sudden moment of clarity, emotion comes spilling over you. I cry from my eyes to my feet, stairs to the street to the gutters to the seas. You sit in that feeling for a while, but then it washes away, and you're left in your habitual resignation. Sigh... better luck next time. Better luck next time.
Feb 1, 2024
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- side note : you must never let your favorite songs get ruined for you after they become a tiktok sound.
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I have always really loved the song and I find it melancholic and unsettling, yet hopeful. It has this almost lazy groove in some parts of it, and this almost chaotic thrumming beat in other parts of it. When I close my eyes and sway to it I don't feel self conscious at all, I just float and nod my head. I think people would hear it and think of all the times I have put this song on and just danced about and it'd make them smile.
Aug 2, 2024
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when i was severely depressed my roommate (who didn’t know i was depressed) surprised me with a bowl of instant noodles while i was studying and i burst into tears. she was very confused but kind about the whole thing. comfy memory.
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