Aka Pamela Andersonās Epic Poem. from July 2014 on Facebook. you are welcome
The Pamelad
Smoldering...
I know it's bad for you...
But, this is when I wish,
I had a cigarette-
something I've never tried- (light up)
some kind of relief..
I wish it was Italy 40 years ago--
The moon rising over the Amphitheater--
to tremendous applause... like Herzog (clap)
Europeans don't seem to care about silly
smoking laws?,
We do what we want anyway -
behind closed doors--
Our true character, collective complexities.
childish activities -
patterns- genetics? Attention deficit-
- ...SEX ... a lost art-- a sickness--
Perversions-
Lost sensuality -
The cruel smell of orange blossoms...
I love being in loveā but expectations,
make it impossible to be happy-
or satisfiedā¦
I've tried⦠so hard..
maybe it's not in fashionā
Traditionā¦just seemed so romanticā¦,
I guess it's a used up ideal ā
for the old fashionā¦
not modernā¦
Female security⦠lost-
no wayā
Coded, and loaded Cell phones,
Computers ā
Ordering sex on line-
is like ordering a book on Amazonā
and ⦠snooping eats you aliveā
A mirrored action. obsessive loveā¦
unhealthy,
hopeless- knocked sidewaysā
There is always this feeling -
of discontentā
Like something is offā¦
I can't put my finger on whyā
Who wants to be the Wardenā
I want out of hereā out of this time ā
in spaceā
Grey, muted crystals,
from unsavory places-
bad intentions,
dull- no fire-- a secret life -
Laying in my hotel bed--
pulling up my stockings- carefully
re-attaching to the garter- ,
The cuban heel- the line
(right on course)
the works...
Feeling a little guilty-
I started to fantasize--
Il Postino, Pablo Neruda-
Should I go to Capri--?
So frustrated--
burning... questions...
No man knows what to do with me--
I blame myself--
To play with me, is eternal--
I'm not 'on the clock' orā¦
on the 'payroll'ā
rrrrā
I had to get out of the room-
The velvet stuff and porcelain things
closing in on meā
What have I done...?
I knew it was wrong from the start--
primitive-- base instinct..
Never marry a rich man...
Euros from a Vagabond..
Just start walking - (Like Jeanne Moreau and
Miles Davis)
Never look back-
There is only beauty ahead,
Salvation..
Glory
Rushing...
I almost forgot where I was-- shit--
My white
Burberry trench -
- on the floor?
A Parkay floorā¦
(Narration by a deep voiced sexy black guy)
BG- She stopped to admire it's clever design,
ME- "So pretty"
BG wrapped herself upā
She snuck out the door with a quiet click,
and Seamlessly, floating down the hall- (on wire)
Her Tom Ford feet didn't
touch the groundā
Falling gracelessly into an elevator
playing Nat King Cole's ā¦. Stardust?
(remembering the movie)
ME- "Fallen Angel?"
BG Nobody was up yet-
out into the cool world she goes,
ME-"Freedomā¦
I can breatheā¦"
BG- looking for a little human contact?
Playful seduction? ā¦
ME- "I'm so Hungryā¦"
BG- Her heart was racingā
It was barely dawn ā
Bathed in perfect light-
magic hourā ā
ME- "Everyone looks good this early"
BG- Even cats and hummingbirds
Was anyone watching her..
She gazed up into dark windowsā¦
to nobodyā¦
and let the jacket fall loosely around
her shouldersā¦
The rush coming back- ā¦
a little lost on purpose,
Hiding around corners,
ME- so dangerous-
my body is on fireā¦.
my body is never doneā trouble finds meā
please find me-
The iron is always hot!"
BG- She Leaned against the cool wall of a
stoney church-
It felt good, soothing-
ME- I wonder how prostitution works-
Does it ever feel good?
Lost little souls - being taken advantage of--
or taking advantage of-
Is it just for money? Is it for attention?
or --- both--
Women suffer-
- Everywhere...
rules, rules, rules--
conflicting needs..
I can't find the answers-- It's an epidemic--
I know I won't compete with a computer--
or - a gaggle of hollywood boys hiring poor
Russian girls to swallow loaves of bread
up their anus'?-
How does that work?"
BG- She was disturbed--
How far can she take this?-- Is it even real?--
ME- "Have we lost men to thin air---
to the Abyss-- to technology and lube-
Flesh is attached to a heart and a brain-
takes effort...and skill...
Where are the great lovers?-- A lost art...
God , I hope not...
I've never been to Columbia-- Should I go?- I really want to go!
Is this Hysteria?ā¦
Objectification?
nowā Coming down from the ceiling,
dripping in gold glitterā
Dancing with Nureyev- eyes closedā
the dreamā¦
arousing my tenderness,
A sweet rawness-
feeling bruised and scratched upā
Hypnotic -
Life is sensualā not a "fix it in post"ā
ME- I miss PLAYBOY-
The End of an Eraā
Chivalry, elegance-
Celebrated imperfections -
differences⦠hotāpassionate dreamy scenesā¦
The girl next doorā shynessā "it's my first time"
but - not my lastā¦.(wink)
ā I'm planning a mysterious coupā
Want to get in on itā
Julian Assange?
Is it healthy, to be fantasied aboutā¦
by many men ā?
Isn't that the goal-
How many can we effectā
It's naturalā to want to be desiredā
The world creeps up on youā
and there you are,
ALL over the place-
places you never intended to beā (desert storm?)
(soldiers)
I am human you knowā
left to adjust to the madness-
No mercy- pay the priceā my fault-
BG- feeling empty, sadā withdrawn-
Left to Isolateā Medicate.
Go to sleepā
ME-NO! I wont- -
ME- You know- It's not freaky enough,
to just be beautifulā
I've never felt beautiful-
I always felt sexual⦠and blind..
oh wowwy⦠I'm losing my mindā
I'm shutting downā It's such a strange feelingā¦
going numb⦠in front of everyoneā-
It's like a Self inflicted drowningā¦hard to doā
(Alarm bells!!)ā
When did I want to be this thing?ā
To attract what?
When did I go from a curious little girl,
to an insatiable woman? Girl on the runā¦
Femme fatale⦠devoted and ā¦.divided.
Are we all going crazy? -
or, is it just me?
Is it that stuff on unwashed vegetables?
When did I lose control over my own heart?ā
When did I start believing ,
That this is all I'm good for-
against my better judgementā
fell for it- dammit- it all backfiredā
It doesn't feel good to be used, neglected, ignoredā
controlledā¦.
I'm not doing thisā
It's humiliating - I have to turn this aroundā
Settling is powerless- desperateā
an illusionā
Can't buy your way out of this one ā¦buddy!!,
I'm cold-
(She can't stop laughing..)
Reminds me of a play I wrote --
That one about The Hell's Angels,
starring -
Steve Queen and Brigitte Bardot--
The Entr' Acte....
** A car chase-
She is going on and on (in french) and
He's just trying to have his way with her-
everything is double entree' Funny/Sexy-(subtitles projected)
They've stolen billions in diamonds - she's dripping from head to toe...
in a sparkly madness of laughter--- 60's Porsche?- (or that GT/Bullit car)
All in a Car - bouncing and swerving-- lights- facing the audience-- (with BW projections from the 60's behind them--)...
They fall in love-- They fall apart---
I'm not sure what the The Hells Angels have to do with it--
but they stay in the title---
The End....