Recently (i.e. within the last several weeks), I have found myself increasingly indulging in taking multiple coffees throughout my morning. This blooming habit marks a departure from the typical taking of a singular morning coffee, a ritual I have found myself engrossed within the maw of for years, what does this mean?
I suspect this departure is not just a departure from a familiar habit but an abandonment ritual propriety. Meaning, that the taking of my morning coffee has ceased to be a habit borne solely from the love of the ritual itself but rather (and more sinisterly) a habit borne from a genuine need of caffeination before I commence my day proper.
The why of this transition from love of ritual to need of substance can be chalked up to multiple factors. Unfortunately, none of these factors are all too interesting. And further, the point here is not one of why. My point is simply to remark what has already been stated, that I — like many — have become somebody who needs their morning coffee, I am dependent on the substance, a portion of own agency surrendered to this habit. The ritual propriety of the event has become of secondary importance to the substance itself. Agency sacrificed for pleasure or maybe for some grander feeling of productiveness. Not all too chuffed.