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moved to a new small city with only my partner & no connections post grad for a year. and now we are getting the fuck out of here and starting anew in a new bigger city with (what i hope are) some sprouts of community. and these two months pre move are so weird in energy, in this place we made no real connections in, with so much more potential life & stimuli in a new city. and i put together, that it has been a fucking pandemic year. that’s why it’s all so weird. we moved here and it’s been a quarantine ass year. and choosing to leave that, stability and nothingness, is freaky as fuck too.

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