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I had been going through endless sleepless nights and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I took some pills and went outside, sat on a bench and watched the stars, smoking cigarettes and dozing off, hoping with all my heart to finally fall asleep, because then I’d finally be at peace.
I went to the cemetery and dozed off between two graves. Looking at the stars while thinking that those people could no longer see them broke my heart, but I was also grateful to still be here to see them myself.
Maybe I took too many pills, because I ended up sleeping for more than 24 hours and don’t really remember everything that happened afterward. Apparently, I went to my best friend’s place, she gave me coffee and cigarettes, and I found my first gray hair. Apparently, I also went out to buy a pain au chocolat, because there’s an empty bag on the living room table.
It might have been a bit too emo, a bit cringe, and kind of dangerous, but I can’t say I regret the experience
Oh, and I ran into a cat.
It stopped and stared at me; it probably isn’t used to running into another frightened little piece of vermin
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Jun 30, 2025
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I'm sure its all due to my poor diet & sleep, and my body is really starting to feel it. Hopefully once I sleep tonight, i'll wake up brand new and relieved to see that "it was all Monday's fault". I wouldn't be surprised, monday's are usually the worst for me, I can always feel it.
Recently I agreed to sleep over at a friends of mine, I like her, and while I wasn't consciously expecting anything but a fun night, I did hope me and her would spark and burn passionately for a night, I really need that touch, embrace, sweat, kiss. It didn't happen, and that's okay, but for some reason, i'm tired of spending these nights alone. I was really glad to have felt and smelt someones breath as they sleep away. I hope i'm not a weirdo, but I LOVE seeing someones face as they dream, & her cute tattoos sitting peacefully on her arms and thighs put me at ease.
Not enough ease to calm the anxiety bubbling in my stomach, bouncing in my brain, and burning my watery eyes. I didn't sleep at all that night, and I woke up to her telling me she's gotta get ready for a date.
Oct 1, 2024
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No.
Why?
Well… complicated.
my sensory issues are silly goofy rn. palms are unbearably sensitive. blankets feel weird. i am toasty in the bedroom. my legs hurt.
god knew i was too powerful. he nerfed me with insomnia and hella autism.
on a different note my cat is snoozing, very cute 10/10 action from her.
May 3, 2025
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It’s feels dangerous
Will I wake him up?
Should I smoke another cigarette?
May 2, 2024
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It hurts like hell to listen to them once they’re gone
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A pile of coats on an office chair in front of a lamp created this silhouette of a young girl in the window. It was such a precious moment, and I hate the thought that someone on the internet could steal her from me. I watched her for a long time, and she became my confidante for an evening. This photo is mine because that moment belongs to me. I feel comfortable enough on this app to share it now — please, I beg you, don’t steal her from me.
Jul 2, 2025