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sometimes i hit slumps of divine nihilism. Nobody listening to this shit what’s the point type mindsets. ultimately i always realize creating music and visuals is the only thing that fulfills me and id hate myself forever if i quit. if i spend the rest of my life at a dead end job ill be happy as long as im still making music.
21h ago
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I’m still early on making music — but this is it:
I️ played like drums in middle school and then fell out of like “performing“ until adulthood when I️ decided to start DJ-ing. I️ loved that so much I️ was like I️ feel like I️ can make my own things like 6 months ago and I’ve just been making small shitty 2 minute things for myself every day.
For me it’s kinda meditative? Like usually no one hears the songs I am making (besides my partner) but it’s really just for me. No clue if any of them will ever reach a record or be on Spotify, but I️ feel like it’s making me greater appreciate music in general.
May 4, 2024
i've always been looking for someone to help me with my music (without much luck tbh) but i've realised that all you need is to care enough yourself to see the creative vision through! to turn an idea into a real thing is powerful even it doesn't turn out as expected. all you have to do is care enough! das ittt diva:) make it anyway
Apr 7, 2025
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cant find a song that has what you want? make one that does! I have no musical training or talent but if I can make something that I like listening to I can be a happy man
Mar 25, 2025
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when u manage to land a gig , even if you bomb, hand out custom bottle openers, stickers, or business cards if need be. (preferably the former, something that isn’t easy to throw out. but IS easy to pocket or add to a keyring.) make sure nobody leaves the venue without a piece of you - this method helps me hack my crippling social anxiety. the pretense of a gift or offering acts as a shield in the face of dread and uncertainty, allowing me to approach people in a way which often feels impossible.
this is inevitably not viable for a lot of creatives. you are taking a net loss in the hopes of creating a personally memorable moment for the people in your scene.
you could call it a percbuddy psyop, but i also see it as proactive realness.
May 28, 2025
content warning, i’ve never talked about this online.
Percbuddy is a chaotic avatar of cathartic self-expression and an intravenous connection to the internet.
“wanna be my perc buddy?” was a question given to Ethan Cooper by a young woman after a group rehab meeting in 2019, and it was the catalyst for my adoption of the name Percbuddy. I co-opted this name to create a character through which i gained the confidence to experiment with genre and songwriting.
two weeks before i planned to visit him In late 2022, Ethan had his life taken by a fake pill, reduced to a statistic in the nebulous “fentanyl crisis” when we were both 18.
He was a creative beam of light who inspired me endlessly- He gave me the name and was always my biggest supporter. It turned my life upside down, but it also gave so much more weight to Percbuddy and what it represented.
it’s difficult to articulate the feeling of the sudden and permanent absence of my best friend. it was a violent rug pull, and i lost all vision of my future.
the desire to completely destroy myself had never been more intense than at this point, but it somehow also never held less power over me. half of me begged to be snuffed out, while the other half clung onto life harder than ever before.
all i can do is live, and hope he can see me wherever he is, which is tough when the brightest light in my life was taken so young, giving me a million reasons to hate whatever higher power would be careless enough to let him die. He had written 3 feature films and a massive collection of short films. He had struggled in the past but was at the healthiest point in his life.
i’m truly hoping for an ascension to the 4th dimension when we die, allowing us to move across time as effortlessly as we move through space. I hope Ethan is omniscient, i hope he can read my thoughts, i pray to gods i don’t believe in that Ethan can still hear my music.
Ethan Cooper was stolen from the people who loved him, stolen from a world which could have been a better place with his work in it.
the emptiness he left behind can never be filled. Art and Music are my coping mechanisms , pop music is how i distract myself , and creating through percbuddy is how i keep his memory alive.
May 29, 2025