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i’ve never been in love before. liking boys feels sooo strange. i knew it left me in this deep misunderstanding of what love should feel like. now that i think (think!!) i’m falling in love, there’s all these other questions in my head. and i’ve been a fan of coming-of-age films and books for forever, because to me, i think i was trying to fill that void in my soul of wanting to be loved. now, things are all around, rumors were spread, and i just want him and i to be okay, as friends. first, i think comes the friendship. maybe it will turn into love. in my head, i think i hope deeply, but for now… friendship.

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the best feeling on earth
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@RATTLESNAKE yes!!! but i think at the same time itā€˜s the scariest thing ever hahahha
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@ROBINONLINE agreed. High risk high reward
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sincere posting look away if ur not a lovestruck fool sometimes i look at this man with so much love in my heart it feels like butterflies again. i have best friends, of course. i love them so much and they will be in my life forever. but in these moments i’m struck with the thought ā€œyou are truly my best friend.ā€ in past relationships, i’d try to force that feeling. now, it really does just occur to me. i get so excited for forever with him. most days, it’s not like this. most days we’re just together and there’s no stress or worry about our relationship. we’re just two people together, happy and that’s that. i am so used to this kind of love, it’s become my normal. but some days, i am struck by how in love i am and how lucky i am. the first time i realized this was forever, a part of me felt weird about that. i had to say goodbye to the part of me that loved first dates, first kisses, and the ā€˜will they won’t they.’ Forever was always what I was looking for, but when presented with it, I worried about never feeling that way again. Anyway, I don’t get first date feelings now, and I’ll never kiss someone new. But this feeling is so much better. He’s asleep right now, and I cannot wait for him to wake up so I can spend another day laughing with him.
Jan 29, 2024
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now i am a very lucky person because i am in love with some who was once one of my best friends. (sadly this rec probably isn’t universally applicable but contains good lessons i hope!) i’d met him during the first week of freshman year of college, and we immediately became close. hung out a ton and related on a lot of issues/values but our interactions were always platonic. by wintertime we were being seen together around campus a ton, to the point that our acquaintances started asking whether we were a couple. we’d laugh at the idea, even joking about it ourselves. oh how oblivious we were. spring rolled around and i suddenly caught feelings. for a couple weeks i tried to convince myself i didn’t like him because i was so afraid of losing our beautiful friendship. i thought it impossible that he would feel the same as me. yes, pretty torturous!! alas, my Emotional Suppression didn’t work. thank god, because one night when we were hanging out in my room he finally kissed me. i had been so afraid but instantly i knew it was right. the risk was worth it. we’ve now been together for almost two years and he is truly the love of my life. he is the best risk I’ve ever taken. yes this is so platitudinous, but sometimes love comes when you least expect it and appears in odd places! more generally, i think - looking for people whose values align with yours is a wonderful place to start establishing intimate and long-lasting relationships, both platonic and romantic. - it’s never worthwhile to force something to work out if your gut tells you it’s wrong — you’re worth more than that. love doesn’t thrive when it’s fed by obligation and pressure. - don’t be afraid to present yourself in your full authenticity to others. if someone else has a problem with You in your Grandest Expression, they’re not worth your energy. love is meant to affirm and expand who you are, not place boundaries on it. - go on self dates and explore what it means to have a loving relationship with yourself! you, as a singular self, are already whole and enough without having a partner. you are complete as a baseline regardless of your relationship status; a partner is meant to complement and embrace this wholeness!! love is ridiculous and hard and beautiful; trust it when you feel it!!
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even platonically, falling in love is one of the most beautiful things about life. more specifically, loving people- the way your friends do something that’s so characteristically themselves, and you can’t help but get up and throw your arms around them and think, maybe you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. the way your mother smiles and the weird little color offset in her eyes catch the light so right, and then she tells a funny joke and it catches you so off guard that you spit your water out. the way that boy in the hallway smiled at you when you started geeking about the band on your shirt. i love to love people. i love to love all of the little things that make people unique. i love to imagine that our paths cross in every universe. ā€œi am a mosaic of everyone i have ever met in this lifetime.ā€
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hi! this feels like a place in which i can share my feelings lol. and i've been thinking about the post i made about being in love for the first time and the rumors that flew around lol. so idk if i can even call this an update, but i guess here it is! things are alright! the feelings still feels intense in my body, making me dissociate with who i really am. is that too strange? i feel like i'm not myself, but at the same time, i've never been more like myself. and i've also been thinking about friendship a lot. being in love brings heavy and intense emotions i've never felt before, but i also want to highlight that i think friendship is such a beautiful thing. i don't know if the feelings are equal in the friendship (in terms of love). and, as disappointing as it might be, i think i need to prioritize friendship above my (really confusing) feelings of what i think i can call being in love. it's sad and slightly depressing. but friendship is such a beautiful thing. there's so much pretty and shiny things i can learn from it. the thing is, i'm starting to think that when your in love, it blanks all the other feelings. it's like the shiny and beautiful things i see in friendship start to mix with all of the things that make me feel in love. how can i separate them? how can i apreciate friendship when i know that somewhere in another reality maybe that's not it? all of this is very nonsensecical i know!!! but it's just how i feel, i think.
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i've been thinking about it a lot. i've seen a video online saying "some people aren't wild and fluorescent, and that's okay." it's crazy how a song can describe the feeling of love so much. to me, love feels like something is glowing in my chest, and i'm waiting for it to just consume me completly. idk i think this is the most nonsensical post ever, but i think it's just how i feel!!