if you tell her how you feel, you’ll get a concrete answer (scary!)
but if you don’t, you can live in a limbo state where you hang out, even though the feelings inside you will stop any actual personal growth (awesome!)
Not the watered down version to save the other person’s feelings. Not half of what you feel. Not the version that you know makes other people more comfortable. Not the version you wish was true. What you actually fucking feel. Terrifying! I know!
sending an email or a dm to a person you care about the response from. i tuck the memory away in the bottomless pit to hide it from my anxiety. if you get a response you are happy, you are otherwise totally unaffected. works like a charm as long as you keep the lid on! also works for trauma!