i have a hard time talking to new people especially when i don’t know what their personality is like. the first twenty minutes of me talking to them is me trying to get a grasp of what they like, what they think is funny, topics to avoid, etc.
even if it’s someone i will never see again, i’m constantly wondering if i’m saying too much, not enough, if i’m being funny, and so on.
its ESPECIALLY bad if i want to be friends with them. then every sentence i say is pre-planned 5 minutes before i say it. i plan out every word and even begin to pick up their vocabulary.
is anyone else like this or am i just a psycho??