lately ive found myself casually chewing on treats and stuff at work, and today I asked myself why...why can't I stop doing this? My reasoning was, "I'm tired and want to feel better." Hmmm..I think I associate food with "feeling better," like it will improve my mood – ie it's having a lasting effect on me and helping me get through the day, like it's my SSRI.
Today I realized, maybe it's okay to just feel shitty and tired. I was pushing myself to be productive, efficient, energized etc "to feel better" so I could work better and feel better about the work I was doing. But why? I do a good job, the only difference is my attitude about it. You actually don't need to be EXCITED about work to get shit done.
Obviously this isn't me saying you should deprive yourself, like go get your treats girl. But I just had never thought of it that way. So yeah, embrace feeling crappy
