Currently I am finding it rather difficult to find myself in this world and what I want to do. Being 21 and in college really puts a lot of pressure on you when your peers are entering their last year at university. I’ve never known what I want to do, i’ve never had a lifelong dream of becoming something. I never had that feeling. Out of high school I had no idea what to do with my life so i copied another persons life instead of taking my own route. I realized then this is never a good idea you should always be yourself. The issue is I don’t know myself, I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I don’t know what I want to become career wise. I have many lifelong goals and plans for my future like getting married, starting a family, and moving to a beautiful house preferably outside of lakeway it’s just the roadblock of how I’m gonna do all of that. Career and money really puts a lingering constant pressure on me and it is genuinely one of the worst feelings in the world. Seeing your peers grow up and get internships and jobs and opportunities when you have no clue whatsoever what you want to do is rough. I do believe somewhere in my mind that I will randomly find a calling or a passion and turn that into a well paying career. But for now i’m stuck.
