Anti Rec: Maybe this makes no sense, but stay with me.
In my efforts to put myself out there and post my art (and I notice this especially with TikTok) I become extremely vain. Not necessarily in a positive sense. Maybe a better way to describe it would be that I become preoccupied with what I look like while I create art.
There’s something so backwards about that to me. This obsession with looking a certain way while I’m focused or while I’m drawing has truly hindered my creative flow. I become a shell by the time I’ve finished drawing for the night (or filming a TikTok). The problem becomes something completely different from how it began. What starts as a creative equation to solve becomes a existential questioning of myself and my appearance. It’s feeling like art is not valuable unless the artist is valued (physically).
