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In June of 2023 I quit my job as a news producer after two years. I had a “mini retirement“ or whatever name it has now before it was trendy. I didn’t quietly quiet. I literally quit. I’ve written poems, won awards for poems, worked on my novel, abandoned my novel, come back to my novel, solo traveled, slept in, got into block printing, planted a garden, gone to concerts, tried to untangle the knot of anxiety inside of me, helped take care of my grandparents, done yoga, read books, watched movies. Now I need a job again. I want to do something I’m proud of. I want to keep this life I’ve cultivated outside of the traditional career. I’m terrified I will never be hired, that I’ve tarnished after these two years of living. Somehow doing the very things we’re on earth to do — create, try, experience — has hindered me. This fear is only being validated with every rejection letter in my inbox. It seems that I’m asking for too much. I don’t care that I’m young. The scope I’m looking through may be narrow but it’s all that I have.
Apr 18, 2025

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I’m reentering the job world after eight months off (abruptly left my museum job in August). The job market is tough right now, so hang tight, keep applying, you will land the right thing. It might take longer than you want but you will get what you want.
Apr 18, 2025
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i’ve worked in the arts for my entire career, mainly in art museums. i’m also an independent curator and ran a gallery out of my storefront apartment for a year and a half. i’ve archived photographs, led museum tours, curated exhibitions, couriered art across the country in an 18-wheeler, written wall texts, edited books, interviewed artists, fundraised, done countless studio visits, written exhibition essays, provided accessibility for disabled visitors, built a curatorial practice around working with disabled artists, project managed performances, and participated as a performer in a couple of pieces (including a Tino Sehgal).
i am immensely proud of my work and have done and seen some incredible things. i’ve also worked with incredible passionate people who have the privilege and honor of making culture. but I’m also very burnt out and currently in the midst of plotting a departure from the art world, in search of a job that provides more balance. my whole job as a “museum worker” has been my identity for 14 years and I’m curious to see what my life looks like next. i’m mediating on and grappling with the idea that we weren’t put on this planet to labor, which compounded with the effects of lockdown and the pandemic, has changed my relationship to work and having a linear career. life is too short and too precious to give all of ourselves to a job (hope that doesn’t make me sound far out or too radical).
right now I’m working with a career coach, doing informational interviews, playing with my resume and cover letter formats, and applying for a wild array of non-art / non-museum jobs. I’d love to hear if you have any insights or suggestions! it’s scary making the leap but I’m trusting my gut here.
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Is there anything more fucking soul crushing than job hunting? Endlessly putting yourself out there, weighing up whether you are good enough for a role or not, waiting for a reply that never comes… I’m at the point where I hope for rejections, they are better than no reply and usually you get some kind or reason.
I’ve never been a career person so when I finished uni I was at a complete loss. Finally found a job I love and want to make my career but it pays so poorly I can’t stay afloat and I’ll probably have to give it up.
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I know it's not an option for most of us and we have to make money to survive but I just really don't wanna do anything!
I quit my job like a month back. I was not enjoying the work I was doing and the pay was shitt. I thought I would develop some new skills and try switching fields and get into like marketing or something. So I started studying about it and tried developing new hobbies but nothing really worked for me. The last couple of weeks I've just scrolled through Instagram and just sleep and waste my time in general. I started applying for the same job again cause I was just feeling lost and bored and anxious and other things. Yesterday I got a call for an interview and now all I can think about is how much I don't wanna do anything. ​ I don't mind working but I really wanna do something I like and I'm passionate about and I have no clue what that is🥲
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