This is gonna be a bit long but. Iām 20 about to turn 21 in a month, from York in England. I am about to graduate from university in July and submitted my dissertation 12 hours ago. I have no idea what I want to do after I graduate and thatās fine. I do media and cultural studies as I find people the habits they form and the stories they tell to be interesting. I think my interest stems from being an only child and not having adequate socialisation from an early age so i ended up consuming a lot of media, either that or autism idk man.
My friends say Iām funny, compassionate and give good advice. I also overthink and apologise way too much. I discovered the mock northern English accent I do is basically ripped straight from my grandma who died when I was young. I told someone that and they said āitās like sheās living on through youā which made me uncomfortable. I am an extrovert but I struggle with my own self confidence so I donāt break out of my shell that often. I started to write stand-up comedy which people found to be funny, but I realised that it wasnāt something I wouldāve like to done seriously as I think Iād start to hate it.
Music is my biggest passion, I played the trumpet growing up and I started to learn the guitar 2 years ago and I barely play as itās at my parents house. I ran a music blog on TikTok that got 4k followers and I met and worked with some cool people. Iād like to make music but I know I canāt sing, that doesnāt stop some people though. And I can only write parody songs. My favourite artists/bands are: LCD Soundsystem, Cameron Winter, Clairo, Blood Orange, King Krule, MIKE, billy woods & Black Country, New Road.
Iām Bi although thatās not really true I say that because it makes people more accepting generally, I realised that I donāt care about gender in a partner as long as their is some romantic connection. I didnāt realise I was gay but people around me assumed I was. Iāve only been in one relationship in my life, and not been on many dates. I probably have the most embarrassing first kiss story out there, so much so I donāt count it as my first.
The best thing I learnt in therapy and something that I tell everyone one is that you should focus on what you can control within your own life and not to care about how other people perceive you, donāt do things just for the sake of validation and donāt avoid things because your scared of looking lame or being judged.
