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one of the biggest things is letting yourself be bored. i feel lucky for all of us who missed being ipad kids and a little dread for the ones who didn't. so much of the life and personality and individual perception i have now came from the little games i used to play in my head and the way you think when you have nothing else to do
i finally just started getting that back. for years i'd always pull my phone out, never go a minute without music or a podcast or some other media injected straight into my brain, and i think i forgot a little how to generate. how to output and create something of your own instead of constantly consuming. but now i walk slowly and see the little worlds in each flower, in each inch of water. everything is so beautiful if you make it so in your head.
i feel like the child version of you is the truest and purest, and most of our lives are spent trying to get back to them, to undo all the layers of alienation and distraction we've placed upon ourselves.
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I was a lil weirdo as a teenager, my hobbies consumed my life and my every thought. As I grew older, I no longer had time for what I used to love to do—I slowly became what I feared I would become: a responsible adult who did not have time for fun.
When I realised this, I fell into a black hole of reliving my old hobbies, and it’s honestly so freeing. I feel so content, I look forward to going home from work and sitting in bed while I watch the shows I used to binge or read the genre of manga I used to love. It’s a comforting sense of nostalgia, as if that free part of me never died. My mood has lightened and I feel myself being more warm towards others around me, I was surprised at the sheer impact of how simple the pleasures can turn your life around.
Make time for your childhood self, they’re waiting for you to come back home.
Jan 29, 2025
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i recently hung out with a friend and we were talking about all the adventures we used to go on as kids, and how simple there were looking back on them. running along railroads, looking for cool rocks in creeks, climbing trees, etc. it feels stupid to complain about losing that sense of adventure as an adult when it's still right there, exactly where we left it when we decided we were too cool for it as 13-year-olds. so basically all this to say, go find a railroad, climb some trees, maybe graffiti a train. you'll see that the childlike sense of adventure is still there, still a part of you. you just have to tap back in and let your imagination loose. be the self proclaimed katniss everdeen that 13 year old you could only dream of and hope to become 🙂↕️🙂↕️
Jan 29, 2025
Nostalgia is so powerful. And so painful.
I’ve made Pinterest boards filled with hundreds of memories and toys and things that shaped my childhood. I’ve made playlists that include only songs that make me feel 6 years old again. I’ve watched movies that bring me the same wonder they did as when I watched them as a child.
But nothing will ever truly bring me back there. It’s gone forever. to know that I will never walk the halls of my elementary school building, or try and plant an apple seed in between the slides of the playground, or play tag with my best buddies ever again is something unbearable. life is so short. I miss it all of the time.
Adulthood has its perks as well. I never have to ask to go sleep over at a friends house and get told no. I can eat what i want. I can get a kitten if I feel like it. But I miss the simplicity and happiness of being a child. I miss just existing and being okay with that. i miss how I felt when I was 6, but I have to accept that I must leave that behind.
Maybe reincarnation is real. Maybe I will live through something like this life again?
There is an ache knowing I will never walk the same tiny footsteps as I once did. But alas, I’ll be 19 years from where I’m at now and miss this age just as much as I do then. The ache will take a new shape. And i will continue living on.
Feb 12, 2025
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i love being alone. i know who i am when i'm alone and i love myself when i'm alone. when i'm around people it's easy to forget and i get lost and aimless.
how do you share parts of yourself without feeling overexposed? even just sharing creative work makes me feel like it's not mine any more and makes me doubt the part of myself that went into making it. but i also feel so stagnant when i'm not putting anything out into the world. where is the balance? how do you deal with this?
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