I suddenly woke up within the past week or so and realized I can’t keep letting my life suffocate me (not to sound dark but it is what it is, in a lot of aspects). My brain is trying for the second time to push me into getting fired from a miserable side gig I have by avoiding and procrastinating and making careless mistakes because my heart is just not in it and really, it never was… last time this happened it was my only source of income and there was a great yawning abyss beneath me but luckily now I do have a job that I enjoy and is not stressful where I’m treated with respect and I get to do a lot of things.
All of that is to say that I just turned a project in literally like 30 seconds before it was due (LOL) and I realized I can’t keep doing this to myself so I’ve decided to quit and hope that this opens up space for me to find something better 🙏