Fuck your notes app and get a cute journal that you can stick stickers onto and carry around as your pride and joy. I love when I write a particularly good song or poem and I can look down at the words in my own handwriting because I did that! And it’s tangible! And I can hold it and feel proud!
even if shit continues to hit the fan, pretty much everyone ends up exactly where they’re supposed to be. you will find a place to live, a job, a lover, friends, etc. just keep going and it will be ok.