I love hyper-fixating on shows, movies, music, books, etc., but one of the best feelings is when I feel so connected and immersed with something. it feels like it becomes a part of myself. it might sound cliche to say that about Pearl (the A24 prequel to X starring Mia Goth) where Mia Goth’s monologue changed everything. it humanized her character and made her so much more relatable to me. I’ve heard that people with BPD relate to her character a lot, which is interesting because I’ve done some research on BPD, and characters that have it. I relate to their characters, but I don’t think I relate to them in such a way that I think I have the disorder, it’s just from a place of understanding. for example, I have a fear of abandonment, but how I handle it is different. the most recent movie I’ve felt connected to is May, which I could see people with BPD relating to as well. May is a movie about this woman who the viewers know early on that she’s different. she’s just trying to find someone to match her freak essentially, but without much success. so, she takes it upon herself to take something from each person she knows to build something better for herself. she did feel like she was being strung along after all