I caught a cold earlier this week and decided to ignore its subtle, yet deleterious and lingering effects on my body. On the fourth day (yesterday), after high-intensity training and taking two capsules of psilocybin, I decided to drive to the local cafĆ© to put in some more work. Iād been listening to this song all dayāmy head was rolling. If there was ever a moment that Iād felt closer to damnation, it was when I walked into the building and wished for complete annihilation. This isnāt anything newāIāve experienced these episodes on and off since I was a child. But something about this particular bout made me realize I should be grateful, judge less, and have mercy. I called loved ones to tell them how sorry I was for words Iād said and actions I committed that may have hurt themāalmost as a final act of salvation before my ultimate oblivion.
I met Lucifer at the bleeding edge, shrieked into the voidāwith one last gesture of love, forgiveness, and meaningāand anchored myself back to earth.
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This song is something potent!
