I had seen people casually before my current partner of almost 12 years, but never love.
I realized I could spend near infinite amount of time with him.
That I didnāt mind holding his hand in public
Or snuggling with him in front of my family
Or introducing him to my friends
Or calling him babe or love.
The idea of vacationing to him only sounded fun.
The idea of moving in together felt right and he felt the same way.
We revel/ed in love celebrations.
All of this happened for me within the first year and I was completely thrown off because I was always stressed out about the potential of being seen (both at all but especially as a spectacle that a relationship brings) and then with him I didnāt mind at all.
