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“When I have food in that’s bad for me I’ll bolt some of it then bin the rest and pour bleach over it in the bin so I can’t fish it out later and eat it, then I’ll smoke the first cigarette from a new pack then go to the sink and hold the rest of the pack under the cold tap on full or I’ll have a first few pulls on a cigarette and pluck it from my mouth and flick it some irretrievable place. The expression on my face won’t change; when there’s no one around I needn’t be convincing. This is very realistic; my feelings happen internally. I’ll have half a glass from a bottle of wine then upend the rest of the bottle into the sink. I like making whatever bad thing irredeemable because I don’t trust future me to be consistent with current me. I know I’m inconsistent and this can be frightening. Self-love is an unobservable phenomenon that cavils forever. I should be punished but not killed outright.”
Feb 21, 2025
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📖This a great book on many levels, it looks at the history of cigarettes in popular culture and society. Klein explores it on a deeper level, looking at the way humans love to dance on the edge of danger and how we process death as well as the association of danger with allure. An interesting mix of absurdism and nihilism. Pretty quick read, 8/10.
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This world is a life sentence. I’m in a state of constant, low grade agitation. Crust gathered around my eyelids like dead weeds in the summer sun. I’m sitting in the line for the COSTCO gasoline station in Van Nuys, CA as I type this. It’s hot and stifling and the malformed waddler phenotype directly in front of me can’t for the life of her get her COSTCO card to read at the scanner. I’m seething, seething in my non-air conditioned 2005 Toyota Solara. It occurs to me that when the government decides to suspend the constitution & institute mass incarcerations, they won’t even need to erect FEMA camps. I’m thinking forced relocation of insurgent population to COSTCO’s around the country. it won’t even be forced. We’ll all just move in & relish the the opportunity to finally, holistically Live in Bulk™️ . In this moment, when being a total misanthrope comes as easily, as urgently as reaching for the glass of water on the floor next to the mattress (also on the floor), I can’t help but think to myself “the narrator from my year of rest & relaxation is literally me”.
Fun, easy breezy read. Made me lol a couple of times. Middle part drags a bit, but the ending’s brilliant. late to the party on this one, but glad I finally got around to it
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😃Currently reading a third time because it’s just so yummy. i read it the first time in a day granted I was in rehab. Eve babitz is the fucking goat and forever underrated. OG it girl and tortured artist literally female Ernest Hemingway With a dash of hunter Thompson heaping spoon of Joan didion. Fiction based in reality like a girl moveable feast. I think I like it so much bc the main character is me coded tbh but the way she says so much in so little is insane and it’s hard to believe it’s not written recently bc it feels so vivid
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My dad teases me about how when I was a little kid, my favorite thing to do when I was on the landline phone with somebody—be it a relative or one of my best friends—was to breathlessly describe the things that were in my bedroom so that they could have a mental picture of everything I loved and chose to surround myself with, and where I sat at that moment in time. Perfectly Imperfect reminds me of that so thanks for always listening and for sharing with me too 💌
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