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147iq shape rotator wordcel hybrid, adhd intj 4w5 indigo child gate program graduate
Everything above 100% is true btw^ All things considered I think I have a pretty normal interior landscape. Songs get stuck in my head. I daydream & I fantasize & I ruminate & I contemplate. Sometimes my mind is busy, sometimes it is totally quiet. Memory is something that constantly fails me-- it's closer to propaganda than documentary to me. And the projectionist who plays the propaganda to me is this blind, deaf, volatile schizophrenic intent on making me, the rememberer, as deluded & ill informed as possible. Sometimes I'll have this strange feeling that I've received a memory from the future in a dream, even more rarely I'll get this sort of memory in the waking world. To understand what I'm talking about, click the link I've supplied. But really, honestly, outside of that I like to daydream a lot. Today I was thinking about visiting Georgia & daydreaming about being a young Russian nobleman in the 19th century, the son of some diplomat or something, laid out in some Tblisi opium den. I'm faded as fuck & I'm staring at the rug and the ceiling & then rolling over facedown in the naked breasts of some Georgian woman. She is perfumed & her arms are fat & she pets my hair and coos-- this is incredibly disgusting to me of course. Sometimes I think that Consciousness is a curse. Free will was given to us by God, but Knowledge of Good & Evil was something that we were tricked into taking up by the serpent (ouroboros). Not a coincidence that all great sages exhort those who seek wisdom to cease with their perception & their perception of perception & their perception of perception of perception. Meta-cognition is the flattened out ourobouros (serpent) that traps the thinker in Hell.
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@steelyfan1998
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Feeling very simpatico reading this though I am not a shape rotator and I’m pure wordcel. I had a disturbingly prophetic and symbolic dream about a month ago that when I look back at it was a little too on the nose. I do believe consciousness is a curse and the root of human evil But I also kind of don’t believe in free will.
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@steelyfan1998
taterhole please tell me more about this prophetic dream. I look forward to hearing more about your own thoughtscape
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steelyfan1998 I can’t tell you why it was prophetic in so much detail but it precipitated an arrival. this is what I wrote about it lol... quite a lot to unpack!!!! I was in a large building and kept running into him in the elevator, again and again. He looked the same as when I had known him but had grown into himself at the precipice of 30. I noticed he had a medical tube which he attempted to conceal, and his mother followed him wherever he went, watching in case he had a medical emergency. He repeatedly sought me out to speak to me and his mother seemed worried about him becoming involved with me. I had an appointment to get my hair cut, colored, and styled, with a photoshoot to take place at the end (I am a hair model in waking life—an informal arrangement to the benefit of my vanity and my stubborn cheapskate nature). I was hoping he could see me when my transformation was complete and watch me as I posed (after my last hair appointment in December, a cashier at Whole Foods felt compelled to tell me that the colors and shapes of my hairstyle reminded him of a phoenix). He suddenly turned into a dog (looking back in retrospect, I thought perhaps this was influenced by Babygirl, but I saw it the following evening). I was trying to help him. His mother saw how I was caring for him and changed her mind about the way she saw me: she was grateful. He had a stabbing pain in his head from being overwhelmed with something; I feared I had done this to him and I felt as if I had to walk away to make his pain stop. I turned a corner in the labyrinthine halls and went to see my stylist.
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@steelyfan1998
taterhole man oh man. I hope that the arrival that this dream precipitated was more fortunate than what transpired in the dream. very tragic, very beautiful dream.
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@taterhole
steelyfan1998 only time will tell though at this point I fear it may have been accurate in its totality 💔
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